Work.... Work.....

That about sums up everything! That is all I seem to do lately and when I do see Ashton, I am a walking zombie! I do have some good news on the work front though....... As of next week...... I am on permanent day shift!! Yeah!! 6:30am to 3:30pm!!!!

Ashton has been waking up when I get home and I swear it is because he misses me. Last night he was so tired but chose to cry to wake himself up. I am so glad that I will be on day shift and maybe just maybe I wont' be so tired!

Finally!

Ashton rolled over today! I have been doing a lot of tummy time with him. I was starting to get a little worried! I am so excited and sad at the same time. Excited that he did it but also sad that he is growing! It is a no win situation.

Just a few pics! (Now that I can!)

So so tired!

Close up of the sleepy boy!

One tired Mommy and sleepy baby

Dinner with Daddy

The best sound in the world

It was Ashton's heartbeating. It was Ashton's first cry. Now it is the sound of Ashton saying "MAMA" over and over again!

This morning I was bombed with MAMA over and over again! Yes, I think it is official. He is saying his first word. It is wonderful and I am so thankful that he is here with me.

Ok here is another

Is is slightly blurry. It isn't your eyesight. This is Ashton in his jumperoo. He loves it!!

Our computer is up and running!!

I am so happy!!!! We finally have our computer back!!! It is great! I have lost my picture program that I am fimiliar with so I am having to use another and well it is taking some time so I will be posting more pics but it may just take me longer for now!I can't believe how big Ashton is now!

Wow!

I can't believe that it has been almost a month since I updated last! Where is time going? I can't believe how fast time is moving now! Ashton is now 7 months old. I so wish that I could share some pictures with you. Our computer is still getting worked on. The computer is now on the last phase of getting fixed so hopefully we will have it back within a week or two. I miss sharing my little guy with everyone! This computer can do the photos but it is so so slow on the upload that it may take a day or so to upload! LOL

What is going on? Not much! Work has been playing change up with my schedule so I have been so tired. I can's seem to get much done never the less get on the computer and keep everything updated! I am really sorry to everyone who comes here hoping for an update or photos. I wish I had more energy. I have none! Yesterday I cleaned the mess of a house we are living in. It seems so hard to keep it clean when all you really want to do with your free time is sleep. The bad part of this is that I am also not sleeping well. So there you have it the update is I am tired! LOL

Ashton now has 2 teeth. He is sitting up on his own but not crawling yet. This would mean that he would have to be on his belly and he hates it there! He has said "Ma" a few times so hopefully "MaMa" won't be to much longer! It is great and sad to see all at the same time. Meaning he gets older by the second and before I know it he will be moving out of the house! I love him so much and he is such a joy to have. I am grateful every day for him.

Happy Anniversary!

Tomorrow is 13 years of marriage for us. Seems like only yesterday!

Lets See .........

Sorry it has been so long since I updated! I just never seem to have the time to get on the computer anymore. I only seem to want to sleep in my free time! I work 5pm to 2am. I get home go to bed and well, pray that Ashton will let me sleep for a little while! Usually he sleeps until 9-10am. He is really a good sleeper 'cause he goes to bed at 8pm!!! I then get up with him and entertain him! Then we lay down for a nap most days. That truly is my day.

So what exciting news do I have for you....... Well, Ashton was in a car wreck. It happened on 7-20. Grandad and Nana had him for the day (family helps me out so I can get some regular sleep) They usually take my car but since Carl was in Akron Oh. For the soap box derby race I was staying at my mother's house. They usually pick him up around 10 so I just left the car seat for them to put in their car. Everyone is ok. Their car was hit in the side. The wreck did $8000 damage to their 4-runner! I am so thankful that everyone is ok and so thankful at the same time that it was their car and not mine! LOL

More exciting news is that Ashton is now over 6months in age. I just can't believe how fast he is growing. It seems like just yesterday that I found out that I was pregnant. I do a lot of thinking about what I was doing this time last year, how far along I was ect.... I just can't believe how time has flown since he got here. I know my pregnancy didn't go that fast at all. Time is really a funny thing.

Ashton rolled over once and discovered that he will get to his belly and well, I don't think he is going to do it anytime soon again! LOL He hates to be on his stomach. He now can sit up for about 20 minutes at a time before he timbers over like a tree! Yesterday we went out to eat for lunch and he used a high chair for the first time.

Ashton had a drs appt Friday and he is now 18.8 pounds and 27 3/4inches long. He had his shots and did really well. He is now eating anything that I want to introduce to him. He got carrots last night and He doesn't like them! It is funny when he doesn't want to eat something 'cause he sticks his tongue out. Maybe if I can figure out how to get this computer to work with the photos I can get a picture of it. It is so funny.

I think you are now up to date with me! I hope that I can now update more often than I have been. I have just been so tired but being a MOM is so worth it.

Sounds from the back seat

I was driving home last week and all I heard from the back seat was laughing cooing and toy noise. It was wonderful to hear. I can't even explain how I felt. I never in my wildest dreams believed I would get pregnant nor did I ever imagine having a child. I started to cry because it was a joy to hear. I love having Ashton. He is a miracle that I thank God for every day. What a blessing that I have him. I am now that women that I never thought I would be. I am the one with the miracle child. I used to be so envious of those women. The one that couldn't get pregnant and then does. I understood their story (infertility) but I was jealous of them. I never thought I could be one of them. I thought God would not bless us with a child. Now, I thank God for him everyday. (Sorry for no paragraphs but with using the old computer-------- every time I hit enter it puts me down the page)

Got a virus!

Well, we got hit with a big one and well, we don't know where it came from. The virus got into our hard drive and our computer is gone!! We are using our old one until we can afford a new one.

I will be uploading photos soon of Ashton and of our cat Sprite who we had to put to sleep last Wed. He was 21 years old. He has been with my sister for the past 8 years. One of my other cats was beating him up to bad so she took him for his protection!

Sorry for no Updates!

I can't believe that I only gave one update in June. It seems like that month just flew by! Where is time going now? I know it didn't go by this fast when I was pregnant!

Ashton is such a good baby. I have no complaints. He is just wonderful! He has his daddies attitude! It is a good thing! LOL He is growing so fast. He eats so much! LOL He is eating cereal and some fruit now. He seems to like this. I still have no photos uploaded so I made a slideroll of the ones I did have. There is a link on the side for them.

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of when Lorna was due. I miss her still. I wish I could have 2 children right now but I know that she came to let me have Ashton. We needed to know how to get a baby here (heprin injections and such) I still wonder about her everyday. Not a day goes by that I don't think of the angel that is watching over us.

Happy anniversary Lorna. I hope you like the fireworks tomorrow. I know that you can see them from heaven.

Just thinking!

I just read Jen's blog. She is trying to lose weight with Weight Watchers. Some time ago I lost 34 pounds on it. I guess I should try to lose some weight. I was a big girl before Ashton came. I am back to pre-pregnancy weight but I should probably lose about 35 more hmmm....... I guess I never even thought about it until I read Jen's blog. I used to obsess about losing and ttc and well, ttc was put to a halt (LOL) and losing weight while pregnant (not so good) I guess what I just realized is how much Ashton has changed me all together. I think I need to start to get back to being just a little me!

We haven't changed our schedules at work yet. We had like 5 people quit so it will be a little while before I get on my new schedule. I was hoping to move soon. I am so tired all the time. Even when I am up in the morning I don't do anything. I really think my house is a mess. I just haven't' found my knatch into mothering and being a good wife too! LOL Carl does help me a lot and I am really thankful for that even if I didn't get a mother's day card. LOL I got Carl a card from me and from Ashton weeks ago! I hope he feels just a little guilty tomorrow! LOL

I have no batteries in my camera so I haven't taken any pictures of Ashton lately! I feel bad every day that I don't take a photo. I feel like I should have a photo for every day of his life. Does anyone else seem to think I am just a little crazy? LOL Sometimes I think that I might be.

Ashton hasn't rolled over yet. Most babies do about this time. I really don't think that he is going to roll. All he ever does when he is on his belly is scream. He hates it. All I can see is he sees no purpose in rolling over there. When he is on his belly he cries until he falls asleep. Any other suggestions would be nice. He is eating cereal now. He also doesn't really like this so I am adding applesauce to his mix which he seems like he tolerates it better.

I just read over the last paragraph and it sounds like Ashton is well a screamer which he is most certainly not. He is extremely happy. He just knows what he doesn't like LOL. Seriously Carl and I couldn't have asked for a better little boy then the one God chose to bless us with.

Don't seem to have much time for anything!

I can't seem to get on the computer at all here lately so I am so sorry for no update. It seems like when I have time to Ashton doesn't allow me! He starts to fuss and make a do! LOL Guess he knows now that he is ruler of this roost!

Anyway, last Monday Ashton went for his four month check-up and shots. He weighs 15lbs and 14 ozs which puts him in the 60th percentile for weight. He was 26 inches long and that puts him in the 90th percentile for height! Carl and I laugh about that cause we are both short!

These are the pictures that we had done on Mother's Day this year! I love them. Ashton didn't want to smile for anything! These were hard to get!

Me and My Mommy

One year ago today!

My little man was transferred back to me last year on this day! I know I didn't think the IVF was going to work. You can read in my archives and see that. Now look at what I got! Ashton is almost 4 months old. My how time flies when you are having fun! I love being a mom. If I could have a litter of children I would. I love how he makes me feel. I love loving him! He is such a good little man.

He has a tooth and it seems like he is getting another. So it won't be long until the toothless grin will no longer be. He is growing so fast! Last week I weighed him and he is a whooping 16 pounds! He is going to go from the 25th percentile to the 95th percentile! Everyone says that he is not fat that he is healthy. My response to that is "When we are fat as babies everyone says that they are healthy but when you get to be an adult and are fat everyone says that you are not healthy!" LOL He has a drs appt on the 23rd so we will find out then for sure. Here he is! I hate to brag but isn't he cute? LOL

Here Ashton is with his God-Mommy Robin at his first soap box race. I promised these photos the last time I posted! I have been so tired lately that when I do get a chance to be on the computer I usually just go to bed and watch TV! I wonder why I am so tired! LOL I still haven't fully recovered from the 12 hours shifts and now we are back on them for this week. So this will be the last post until the weekend for sure. Robing is a nursery nurse! She works at the hospital that I delivered at. I know that he got very good care when he was there! She loves to have him. She says that she doesn't get to see the babies grow up!

Here my grandfather and his new bride are at the baptism with Ashton. Doesn't my grandfather look like Ronad Regan? LOL Anyway, my mother was really sad moving my grandfather out of his house and into Madaline's. They are so good for one another. My grandmother passed away 4 years ago. Madaline's husband passed away 11 years ago. They met on a bus trip. They seem very happy together.

On another note, A big congratulations to Liz and Ivan for a positive test!!!! I hope that you have a very healthy and happy nine months ahead of you!!

And Another big congratulations to Lisa!!!!!!! She also got a bfp!! Some of you may know her and others may not. She is from pregnancy weekly. We got to know each other because of losing our July 05 angels. She even came to my baby shower and some may remember she gave me the stroller/car seat! I am so excited and happy for her! I hope that she has a wonderfu pregnancy!

What a week!

When we got out of church we found out that Carl cousin had her baby -boy- Trinton Jackson 7lbs 11oz 20 1/2 inches long. I wish her well. She is only 15. Then Carl and I were on 12 hour shifts all week long. I missed him so much!!! Ashton that is. Yes I saw him everyday but I felt like I was sleeping more than I was seeing him. I would get home at 4am then get myself ready for bed ect.... Ashton would be awake for a little while then go back to sleep. Then around 10am when he wakes up someone comes and pickes him up. Monday he spent with my sister Sue, Tues with my other sister Dina, Wed with Gramie, Thurs with Nana, Fri back with my sister Dina. They kept him until about 9pm so Carl could get some sleep. We both felt like we were neglating him.
Sat I get off at 4am and have to be back at work at 8am for a meeting. Ashton spent this time with my sister Dina as Carl had to be there too. We get home at 12. Then my grandfather who is 87 is getting married at 4! It was a great service even though I have only had 4 hours of sleep. I will post pictures later. I go home with Ashton and go to bed. I sleep until 6:30. Ashton got up 1x during the 12 hours for a bottle and that was it. He must have been tired too!
Sunday- Ashton goes to his first soap box race. I put on sunblock on him but he got a little sun around his eyes! I feel bad about that. Anywhoo, I am looking forward in getting caught up on pw and my blog and dh just called to say they want us to work again 12's this week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHHH so I am going to miss out again this week. After this week I will have done 12 12's! We are doing them again the week of May 15 so we will only have 1 week off of them instead of 2! Yes the money is great but I guess we will have to draw the line somewhere. I am missing my little man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I wont' be around again this week!

Ashton was baptized!

I just so wanted to break down and cry tears of joy. I truly never felt like we would ever have our miracle and here he is already 3 months old. He was wide awake for the service and when it was time to get baptized he fell asleep. Terri our minister didn't want to give him back! It was all so beautiful.

This is Carl and I and Robin and Darren. They are Ashton's God parents. While we were saying our vows to God and Ashton, I just kept thinking of "Wow, We did this 9 years ago for them!" Courtney so wanted to be there. She was so upset that she couldn't come. She got Fifth's disease and wasn't allowed to attend. She was crying to me on the phone last night. She has been calling herself his God sister since she found out he was a boy! We have it on video for her to watch and at the end of the service our minister had everyone shout Hello to Courtney so she would know that we were thinking of her.

Ashton's 3 month old photo!

Boy is time flying with him! I can't believe he is 3 months old. Well as of today 3 months and 3 days. I couldn't get him to smile for the camara. He kept staring at it!

Busy week!! Sorry for no updates!

I went and saw my RE Dr last Tuesday. I saw him cause I was still bleeding from birth. I talked to him on the phone the week before. I was still passing parts of the placenta. He did an u/s and everything is ok now that I had af. There is still a little something in there but he thinks since I had af and am not bleeding anymore that it will pass on its own. He gave me Provera to regulate my cycles on my own. He said I could take it every 2 months if I wanted to. (Has to be every 2) He is such a great Dr! He went over a Frozen Embryo Transfer with me so that I would know and be ready when I am ready!! LOL I am ready now! LOL I love being a mommy and can't wait to have another miracle. IF God only grants me one I am fine with that but a second would be even better! I feel greedy wanting another when I know so many women still trying for their first and not having any luck. I have 9 frozen embryos that I think need a chance at living.

Carl's sister and brother-in-law are in from Florida so I haven't been able to get on the computer much. This is the first time that Smitty has seen Ashton. He works in Afghanistan as an outside contractor on an American base. Carl is thinking about going over there for a year and working so that I can be a stay at home mommy. I am worried about this cause he will miss so much. All of the firsts! It is great money yes but is the risk and missing so much really worth it? I really don't think so.

Sorry its been awhile!

So here he is 2 1/2 months old now. I just can't believe it! We had to buy him some summer clothes. This is just one of many that we bought. We did go over board!

This is Ashton on his first day of work! LOL He goes with my sister on Thurs. so that I can get some sleep. My sister works for my Dad so it is ok! He has been stinking up the office now for 3 weeks! Never fails if I need him to go all I have to do is send him to work. He is always so tired when he gets home. Work is so stressful!