Tuesday!

Where are you? Oh yeah, still 4 days away! I can't wait until then. I will be 12.1 weeks and I get to have an u/s. Can't wait! I just want to know if this baby is OK. I can hear the heart beat with the Doppler but I just am nervous and I am not sure why? I guess, I am just worried more about this one because of it being conceived naturally. I just didn't think that it was possible for me and Carl!!! Oh well 4 days. I have 199 days left till due date!

I will be posting some pictures of Ashton today. He got his first major boo boo on his face Monday. So I am going to post pictures of that and of the parade we were in last Sat. Right now it is 5:30am and well, I just can't sleep but I am tired. Go figure!

Why I think this baby might be a Girl

Yes I think that it is a girl. I have been wrong with both Lorna and Ashton so my chances of getting this one right are at 50%! LOL Anyway, I have decided that this is a girl because of the post coital test showing Carl's troopers "swim for the light" this one trooper said "Your not right! Its this way! Its my way or the highway" This trooper makes it to its destination. (Maybe she pulled over and asked for directions!)Only a girl would be able to do these things! Not to mention we are finding the heartbeat with the doppler and she is fast-170-175 like Lorna was. Ashton was 150-155. Plus we find her very very low (yes I know I am early but sometimes I find her behind my pelvic bone!)like Lorna and Ashton was high. I guess we will find out in a matter of months!

Out of Work!

This morning I had such a problem with my sugar that I called Carl and told him that I wasn't going to be able to work anymore. I was soooo crying. With Ashton's pregnancy I had afflac. I didn't sign up for it this year because with Schneider to be elligble for short term disability you have to have 18 months of consecutive work. This was Sept for me. We thought it would be stupid to sign up and pay for a service that could only be good for 3 months. Oh Well, God has got to have a plan for us 'cause nothing brings this kind of miracle to us and with such a surprise.

Don't Forget to Light Your Candle!

Today is infancy loss awareness day. Normally, Carl and I release balloons to Lorna. This year we are lighting a candle in her memory. I still miss my little girl. I will always wonder what she would have looked like, what she would be like. She should be 2 now. I wonder how the terrible two's would have been to her and to us. I know her purpose in our life but it still doesn't make losing her any easier. Even though this Feb will mark 3 years I still remember the loss like it was yesterday.

We love you Lorna and miss you dearly. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you. Please watch over Ashton and your new brother or sister to be.
Love you
Mommy and Daddy

Still Can't believe

I am still having a hard time accepting that I am pregnant. It just doesn't seem right. I never in a million years would have thought that Carl and I would get the "FREEBIE" pregnancy. I used to pray to God for this baby. A baby that could come to us for free. Now that it is here well, I just still don't believe. I am picking the heart beat up with the doppler that we have and everytime I am just thinking to myself "I must be dreaming"

I used to hate it when people would say to me after Ashton was born that now you are going to get pregnant on your own. I hated it. I don't ovulate. (Well, apparently I do every now and again) Carl and I had a post coital test that showed 0 of his troopers made it to their destination. The odds of this happening to us were like 1 in a billion. Even more so that Carl and I haven't had alot of sex in the past couple of months. It just is a plain miracle that 1 on Carl's troppers found its way and that there was an egg there for them. I go through this alot in my head these days and I just can't believe.

14 days to u/s. Maybe this will help me but the first one sure didn't. I am still finding it hard to just believe in a miracle.

Everything seems to be OK

No, I didn't get the u/s liked I had hoped. However, the GD is back. Go Yuck Diet! I hate most of the foods on the GD diet but anything for a baby. I am still having a very hard time believing in this-that I am pregnant. I am greatful though that we were able to pick up the baby's heartbeat with our doppler. At least, I know that everything seems ok for now. I have an appointment in 3 weeks with my high risk dr. I will get an u/s then. So for now the countdown begins. 21 days left until I see this baby again!

Nervous

I have an appointment tomorrow with the nurse practioner. This is just so I can get a referral to the perinatologist. I think this is a money making scheme! Anyway, I am scared to death that I will go tomorrow and there won't be a heartbeat ect.... I hope that she at least looks at my little one with the u/s. I won't know till then but I am a nervous wreck because of it. I guess, when you have been in a situation like Carl and I that the fear of loss never leaves. My family is so positive about the outcome because this one was conceived naturally. I wish that I could just feel this way. I don't. I know all the things that can go wrong. I hope above hope that they are all right and my fear is just fear.

U/S photos!

Well, There he she is. Can you believe it cause I certainely can't!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL NATUAL USED NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I used Provera Sept 5 thru the 15th to make my period come around. I haven't had one since july 23 which isn't unsual for me. I saw DR I on sept 4 I had an u/s at that time and he didn't see anything. I went in last week and they told me to wait another week and then call. Yesterday I was busy and forgot to call. For some reason I thought I might just be pregnant so I took a test this morning and it was positive right away!! I called DR I and he was out of town so I talked to the DR on call. Because of my history and an ectopic I aroused her curiosity. She called in for me to have an HCG quantitive level. She told me that if it was high enough she would do an u/s. IT WAS 56000!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had the u/s and it is in the uterus and has a Heart beat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am 7w5d!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG
Does God have a sense of humor or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will post pictures of the u/s tomorrow.

Sad News

I am really sorry to tell you that Holly lost the baby. She was 12 weeks along. I know exactly how they feel. I just don't understand why it happens.

Its Been a Very Bad Day

Today at work it was announced that GM didn't renew our contract with them. Our last day of service to them will be 1/21/08 (Ashton's birthday!) I am really unhappy. I have a schedule. I know when I am going into work ect... These things are just not easy to come by in the trucking industry. I do hope that the next contractor (Chopper Express) will hire me and Carl for the same pay and keep us doing our current jobs. I am terrified that we would lose money. We probaby will. :(

I am going to be an Aunt!

I got a call from Carl's mom Lorna today to tell us that Holly is pregnant. This is Carl's brother's girlfriend! I do hope that she has an uneventful pregnancy. She goes in next week for an ultrasound to see how things are and how far along she is. She may have very well conceived here in America!! If this is so Carl and I think that she should name the baby a red neck West Virginia name! LOL I am so happy for them.

Vacation Photos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a good photo to start with! We were coming home from the airport and Ashton just wouldn't stop so I took a bribe photo for when he is much older!!


Gramie and Ashton at Dullus Airport 8/18/07


"Are we there yet" 8/18/07


Dina and Ashton waiting for the bags 8/18/07


Helping with the bags 8/18/07


This is probably my favorite photo. He really shows his personality. 8/17/07


8/17/07


Ashton with cousin Michelle and her boyfriend Bret. 8/17/07


Leaving the beach 8/17/07


At the airport in Atlanta 8/18/07



8/17/07


Doesn't he look like he is saying "What?"


Ashton was tired and was letting us know by trying to go to sleep like that.


Ashton likes to float on his back.


Daddy and Ashton 8/17/07



8/17/07


Gail and Ashton 8/17/07


8/17/07


8/17/07


Mommy and Ashton 8/17/07


Destin Commons 8/16/07


Gail, Ashton and Daisy 8/16/07


Ashton 8/17/07


Ashton and Lilly. 8/16/07


Gail and Ashton 8/17/07



We went to the Gulfarium while we were there. Ashton loved the sea lions! 8/13/07


We went to the Air Force Museum that was there. Ashton really liked it. It was kind of funny cause he couldn't decide where to go to first. He would take one step and then 2 steps in the other direction. 8/14/07


There is a shopping Mall down there called Destin Commons. They have a play area for the kids and water to run through. Ashton had a good time. 8/16/07


This is Ashton running in the water at Destin Commons. 8/16/07


Destin Commons. 8/16/07


Carl and Ashton in Gail's backyard. 8/12/07


Ashton's first dip into the ocean! 8/12/07


Carl and Ashton on the beach. 8/12/07


Ashton really like the sand 8/12/07


Me and Ashton at the pool at the beach. 8/12/07 It was like bath water!


This is Ashton on our first day of vacation 8/12/07. He got into Gail's dog (daisy) kennel!

Happy Anniversary!

Today Carl and I have been married for 14 years. I just can't believe it. Sounds like a long time ago but it doesn't feel that way. WOW is all I have to say about it. There are no words for me to describe it. Other than 14.........
Here are some wedding photos 8/8/93





Its funny cause every time I look at these photos I just can't believe how much Carl and I have changed.

My heart is Sad

Carl's family left on Friday. We were so hoping that they would be asked to give up there seats but it wasn't meant to be. I am just sad. I didn't get enough time with them. I couldn't get off from work but only last Monday to spend time with them. I didn't want them to leave at all. We all cried. It was a terrible goodbye. Carl and I cried on the way home from the airport.

Carl and I have been married for 14 years on the 8th of this month. In that time I have met his mother only once before and I have never met his brother. I wish it wasn't so expensive to fly to England. Carl hadn't seen his brother in 17 years! I was glad to met him and his girlfriend Holly. They are really great people. Yes I love my in-laws! It won't be to long next time. In 2 years we are going to meet up in Orlando Fl to go to Disney.

Carl's brother built us a deck while he was here. Well, built it in just 2 days with labor help from Carl and my brother-in-law Lance. Carl's mother wouldn't even let us pay for it! Kenneth is a carpenter. It is the best gift ever! I couldn't have asked for anything more! I love it. I now sit outside and think about them and miss them. I have been very teary eyed since Friday.

Here are photos of everyone from Friday. I don't think they were happy at all. I was at work.
Grannie and Ashton

Kenneth, Carl, Lorna and Ashton.

Kenneth, Holly, Lorna, Ashton and Carl

Photos while they were here.

Grannie gave Ashton a cookie on the way home from Luray. We drove back on Skyline drive. It was a great day.

Gail and Ashton. This is Ashton's favorite place to be the mower!

Grannie had to stand up while giving Ashton a bath because he was getting her soaked!

Isn't he just getting so big!

Photos of the Deck and other photos

Here is the deck almost finished.

This is Kenneth. He is the one who built the deck with help from Carl and brother-in-law Lance

We went to Luray Caverns last Monday here is a picture of Ashton who like looking.

The view from the deck.

From left to right Ashton, Carl, Holly, Kenneth, Lorna, Lance, and Gail