Christmas Tree!

We decided to put our tree up yesterday. We sent Ashton to grammies house. We worried about how grumpy he was going to be. He only slept 7 hours the night before! We were also worried about all the breakables which I didn't set out or put on the tree this year. We thought the surprise would be better and it so was worth seeing him surprised!! This first photo is of the snowglobe we got him last year. He loved it last year and it seems he still does!

Hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving!

I had a good time with family and friends yesterday! However, because of the gestational diabetes, I didn't get to eat all that I wanted! I remember last year being so happy because I was going through the holidays not pregnant! LOL Anything for baby though, maybe I will have a feast in May! LOL

16 week Belly photo!

Well, here my big belly is! 16 weeks 1 day!

Don't mind the stretch marks. Those are from Ashton!

The next 2 are for comparison. This is me pregnant with Ashton at 16 weeks. There is a big difference!!

It is getting cold!!!!!!!!!!!

Last weekend Carl cleaned out my car and Ashton wanted to go out with him! It was so cold so I bundled him up as you can see!

Are we really ready!?

Yesterday, we think Ashton had an upset stomach, he was in such a bad mood! He was surely showing his temper etc.... It was really trying for both Carl and I! We both had gotten up early yesterday and it was to say the least tiring!!!!!!! Carl said to me "Are we ready to do this over again?" I immediately said "NO we are to old for this!" I had to take the little bugger out in the car to get him to go to sleep last night!

It was just a bad day and now today I can't sleep in either! Well, my sister takes him for the day so maybe I can get a nap in! He did have diarrhea. It broke his bottom out so bad!!!!!!

NT Scan Positive!

Well got the call from the Dr. today. The results weren't as good as I had hoped for but not as bad as I was expecting! The results are that the scan for trisiomy (sp?) is a definite negative while the results for the down syndrome are are positive. All this test does is give you your risk factor for the syndrome. If you go just by my age (36) I have a 1-193 chance of having a down syndrome baby. The test reveals 1-225 chance of the syndrome. The Dr would like to do an amnio but Carl and I have decided not to get it. There is a risk factor of 2% for a miscarry. How guilty would we feel if we lost this baby because of the amnio just to find out if the baby has it or not and the baby turned out to be completely normal. Also I would have to stop the lovenox for one night and well that scares me too. We will wait to see what the U/S reveals at 18 weeks if there are any markers of downs and then if there are we may opt then but for now, we are OK with our chances. God blessed us with this child for some reason.

Halloween Pictures!

This is a little blurry but he kept moving everytime I tried to take his picture!!!


This is my sister Dina trying to hold him still for a photo!


He was getting candy from my sister! Can't you see he loves candy already!


In this photo even though you can't see his face, you can at least see his costume. He was a scarecrow. I had people tell me he looked like Robin Hood!




Carl took Ashton to a Pumpkin Patch place last weekend. He had lots of fun! That is where the rest of the photos were taken at.

U/S today!

There he or she is sucking their thumb. My mother said this was the baby getting practice cause Ashton is just going to steel the boo from him or her!

This is looking down on the baby's face

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The dr changed my due date to May 3, 2008 so I am 13w3d!! I had the early testing done for down's and the measure wasn't good so we need to pray that this isn't so but God gave us this baby for a reason. The results won't change the outcome of the baby just that we know. IF my blood work comes back not good for it to I think we will just opt for an amnio

More pictures!

I forgot Ashton's shiner photo. This picture was taken the next morning after it happened! It ended up looking worse before it got any better. He got out of the tub and well was running around naked and I met him at the bedroom door and he started to run from me. He ran around the bed but didn't quite make it and fell into our clothes basket (hard plastic)



My niece,sister nephew and girlfriend, we went and saw the Rocky Horror Picture Show this weekend. We dressed for the occasion!! It was so much fun!! This is my nephew and girlfriend Kayla


This is my niece Andrea


This is Dina my sister and me! I am on the right side.

This is Andrea my neice. She pushed Ashton in the parade for me.10/20/07


As you can see Ashton was just thrilled with the parade!


Isn't he just adorable!


Ashton woke up the other morning when Carl went to work. It was 5am and well he was playing with his trains!


This is Taylor and Ashton. He has her wrapped around her finger!


Ashton just loves his Chocolate!

Tuesday!

Where are you? Oh yeah, still 4 days away! I can't wait until then. I will be 12.1 weeks and I get to have an u/s. Can't wait! I just want to know if this baby is OK. I can hear the heart beat with the Doppler but I just am nervous and I am not sure why? I guess, I am just worried more about this one because of it being conceived naturally. I just didn't think that it was possible for me and Carl!!! Oh well 4 days. I have 199 days left till due date!

I will be posting some pictures of Ashton today. He got his first major boo boo on his face Monday. So I am going to post pictures of that and of the parade we were in last Sat. Right now it is 5:30am and well, I just can't sleep but I am tired. Go figure!

Why I think this baby might be a Girl

Yes I think that it is a girl. I have been wrong with both Lorna and Ashton so my chances of getting this one right are at 50%! LOL Anyway, I have decided that this is a girl because of the post coital test showing Carl's troopers "swim for the light" this one trooper said "Your not right! Its this way! Its my way or the highway" This trooper makes it to its destination. (Maybe she pulled over and asked for directions!)Only a girl would be able to do these things! Not to mention we are finding the heartbeat with the doppler and she is fast-170-175 like Lorna was. Ashton was 150-155. Plus we find her very very low (yes I know I am early but sometimes I find her behind my pelvic bone!)like Lorna and Ashton was high. I guess we will find out in a matter of months!

Out of Work!

This morning I had such a problem with my sugar that I called Carl and told him that I wasn't going to be able to work anymore. I was soooo crying. With Ashton's pregnancy I had afflac. I didn't sign up for it this year because with Schneider to be elligble for short term disability you have to have 18 months of consecutive work. This was Sept for me. We thought it would be stupid to sign up and pay for a service that could only be good for 3 months. Oh Well, God has got to have a plan for us 'cause nothing brings this kind of miracle to us and with such a surprise.

Don't Forget to Light Your Candle!

Today is infancy loss awareness day. Normally, Carl and I release balloons to Lorna. This year we are lighting a candle in her memory. I still miss my little girl. I will always wonder what she would have looked like, what she would be like. She should be 2 now. I wonder how the terrible two's would have been to her and to us. I know her purpose in our life but it still doesn't make losing her any easier. Even though this Feb will mark 3 years I still remember the loss like it was yesterday.

We love you Lorna and miss you dearly. Not a day goes by that we don't think of you. Please watch over Ashton and your new brother or sister to be.
Love you
Mommy and Daddy

Still Can't believe

I am still having a hard time accepting that I am pregnant. It just doesn't seem right. I never in a million years would have thought that Carl and I would get the "FREEBIE" pregnancy. I used to pray to God for this baby. A baby that could come to us for free. Now that it is here well, I just still don't believe. I am picking the heart beat up with the doppler that we have and everytime I am just thinking to myself "I must be dreaming"

I used to hate it when people would say to me after Ashton was born that now you are going to get pregnant on your own. I hated it. I don't ovulate. (Well, apparently I do every now and again) Carl and I had a post coital test that showed 0 of his troopers made it to their destination. The odds of this happening to us were like 1 in a billion. Even more so that Carl and I haven't had alot of sex in the past couple of months. It just is a plain miracle that 1 on Carl's troppers found its way and that there was an egg there for them. I go through this alot in my head these days and I just can't believe.

14 days to u/s. Maybe this will help me but the first one sure didn't. I am still finding it hard to just believe in a miracle.

Everything seems to be OK

No, I didn't get the u/s liked I had hoped. However, the GD is back. Go Yuck Diet! I hate most of the foods on the GD diet but anything for a baby. I am still having a very hard time believing in this-that I am pregnant. I am greatful though that we were able to pick up the baby's heartbeat with our doppler. At least, I know that everything seems ok for now. I have an appointment in 3 weeks with my high risk dr. I will get an u/s then. So for now the countdown begins. 21 days left until I see this baby again!

Nervous

I have an appointment tomorrow with the nurse practioner. This is just so I can get a referral to the perinatologist. I think this is a money making scheme! Anyway, I am scared to death that I will go tomorrow and there won't be a heartbeat ect.... I hope that she at least looks at my little one with the u/s. I won't know till then but I am a nervous wreck because of it. I guess, when you have been in a situation like Carl and I that the fear of loss never leaves. My family is so positive about the outcome because this one was conceived naturally. I wish that I could just feel this way. I don't. I know all the things that can go wrong. I hope above hope that they are all right and my fear is just fear.

U/S photos!

Well, There he she is. Can you believe it cause I certainely can't!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL NATUAL USED NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I used Provera Sept 5 thru the 15th to make my period come around. I haven't had one since july 23 which isn't unsual for me. I saw DR I on sept 4 I had an u/s at that time and he didn't see anything. I went in last week and they told me to wait another week and then call. Yesterday I was busy and forgot to call. For some reason I thought I might just be pregnant so I took a test this morning and it was positive right away!! I called DR I and he was out of town so I talked to the DR on call. Because of my history and an ectopic I aroused her curiosity. She called in for me to have an HCG quantitive level. She told me that if it was high enough she would do an u/s. IT WAS 56000!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had the u/s and it is in the uterus and has a Heart beat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am 7w5d!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG
Does God have a sense of humor or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will post pictures of the u/s tomorrow.

Sad News

I am really sorry to tell you that Holly lost the baby. She was 12 weeks along. I know exactly how they feel. I just don't understand why it happens.