Pictures from Today

After all was said and done this is how I found him! He was so tired! LOL

Ashton was helping his Daddy! He also saw a plane and made sure we knew about it!

Being a bad blogger

Well, I now have a myspace web page. I still dont like the photos over there. There is a really nice slide roll there of mine to look at. I will have to play around with it. I don't think that I can ever move from this web page. It was the one I started after I lost Lorna. It is apart of me. I am writing on both pages LOL. I guess you have to visit both of them now. I am not sure how many of my friends still come here since I don't write often and don't have time to visit everyone else's pages too. Oh well, here is the other page address http://www.myspace.com/infertile2mommy At least go there to look at my pictures of Ashton's life!

Long overdue update!

I don't have to much time lately. Ashton really keeps me busy and when I do have time I just feel like sitting still! LOL I am not liking this new blogger and I am thinking of moving out. I will let you all know if I do. I have a terrible time with the photos now and they never post where I want them to so I think I am going to have to move. Anyway the photos are Easter and Ashton cousin Trinton's birthday (he is almost to the day 3months younger than him.)

Its been forever!

I know I haven't updated in a long time!! Sorry. The best way to describe the end of Feb, March and the first three weeks of April is....... Sick..... I have been sick in one way or another. I had a cold which gave me an ear infection and it took six weeks and three different antibiotics before it went away and then last week..... another cold..... which is now bronchitis. This weather has been terrible. Twenty degrees in the morning and 40 - 50 in the afternoon or heck we have even had snow in the last week or so. Where is spring? It feels more like fall. Ashton and Carl both have been sick as well. I will try to update with photos and such when I am feeling better.

Ashton sleeping

Giving this a try too. Here is a video of my guy on his roller coaster that he got from NaNa and Grandad for Chrismas.

Figured out the photos!!

This photos was just from a day ago. I took his clothes off and let him feed himself. He didn't do a bad job at all and he loved it! The picture below is just cute! LOL The doll in the background is wearing his coming home outfit! My baby isn't a baby anymore!

I love this one it looks like he is saying "I got it Mommy"

Yes he is walking and walking well!

This is the loot from his birthday party. He got so much stuff!! (again)

He was more interested in the shiny tissue paper than what was in the bag!

This was his cake.

But he had a cake all to his own too!

Just getting started!

The decorations!

The snow!

So I am going to hit you with alot of them!! Here are photos from his birthday! That was the beginning of the snow!

Happy Angel Birthday Lorna

Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. We love you always. It is to cold for us to send you balloons today. We will as soon as it is a little warmer outside. Happy 2nd Angel Day.

Having Trouble!

I upgraded my blog for the new format but now I can't get my photobucket account to connect. I deleted it like photobucket told me to do to try and reset it up again but now it says user name and password are invalid!! Don't know what to do. I want to show you pictures of Ashton's first birthday party!! Anyone know what I am doing wrong??

Happy Birthday!!!!!

OMG He is one!!!!!!!!!!!! That year went by so fast! His party was great. I was getting worried that no one was going to show up. His party was suppose to be at 4pm but after it started snowing, we called everyone to come early! We had 21 people come even with the snow. Carl went and picked up my sister and her clan. We had a great time.

Can't believe it!

Tomorrow, Ashton is one. Where did the year go? This time last year Carl and I were so nervous. Ashton's heart rate had dropped so and we had gone to L&D on the nineteenth but the DR on call didn't want to induce me and we were sent home to wait for my appointment in the morning. I remember it all so well and just like it had happened yesterday. At 11:00am is when the DR started the pitocin to make my labor start. My baby is just not a baby anymore.

His birthday party is tomorrow and I will post pictures tomorrow evening sometime. Hope everyone is well!

He took his first steps!

We are so excited! He took them for his aunt and uncle. So both carl and I missed them but he did take them for us too. I can't believe that in just 10 days he is going to be one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!! Where did the time go!

Happy New Year!

Last night marked the end to one of the best years of my life. The new year always for me brought with it hope. Hope that I would get pregnant and have a child. Well, 2006 was that year for me. Twenty-one days into 2006 I had my child I so dearly hoped to have. I watched him grow and learn so many new things. What a blessed year 2006 was for us. Joy, I think best describes what I felt as I watched 2006 come to an end.

Please Scan down.

The posts were posted in opposite order and I don't know how to change them. My update post is at the bottom.

Just to tired to take anymore!

I don't want to eat!

You know Dad this is stupid clothes!

Who is that?

Got my first set of wheels!

Daddy I am still playing with the last gift!

Ashton opens first gift with Cousin Ian

The pile of presents

One of many times we had to say "No" to Ashton

This is our tree.

Going to overload you!

Sorry I haven't updated in so long, alot has happened this month. So here we go. I haven't felt like updating. I was so sad to see Lisa lose her baby. She is blaming herself because they don't know why she lost her. Lilly's funeral was over a thousand dollars! I think their should be a discount when things like this happen. It is hard enough to deal with the loss and then to have to pay that amount! I wish their was some magic word I could say to her to make her feel better but it just isn't so.

Carl's sister Gail was here for Thanksgiving. It was fun to have her here. This is when we did all our shopping for Christmas! Gail loves to shop! We bought to much for Ashton. It was just so much fun to go and buy for Christmas this year. We had a reason to shop. Carl and I rarely exchanged gifts at Christmas because we take that money and spend it on someone else. We always had someone that we gave a big gift to. This year it was definately going to be Ashton!

We went on our trip to NYC. It was great fun. However, I didn't take my camera with me. I didn't want to carry it with me. We didn't have much time to do hardly anything but walk. We went to Madison Square Garden (this is where we were dropped off), Time Square, Ground Zero and Rockerfeller Center. This best part of this trip was the cab ride to Rockerfeller Center!! It was like being on a roller coaster. LOL We were in the back with our hands up in the air! We had a great time. We were surprised to feel so comfortable on the steets of NYC. By the way it was freezing there!!

Ashton got a cold the Tuesday before Christmas. He was so sick. He ran a temp of 103.7! Nothing was working not even a cool bath so I called the dr at night and he told me to give him children's motrin which worked on bringing down the fever. He is still congested but he is dealing better with his cold than Carl. Carl got the cold for Christmas day! Knock on wood I still don't have it yet!

We had a nice Christmas with Ashton. He wasn't really interested to much in opening anything at all. He did like his toys that he got. The biggest hit was his roller coaster that NaNa and Granddad got for him. Believe it or not I don't have any photos of him on it yet! I will have to take one if I remember to. He was overwhelmed with the people and stuff. I did take photos of Christmas!

We took off the day after Christmas. I wanted to get my house clean! Our tree was falling down. With Ashton pulling on it and the cats climbing it, it looked really sad. For Christmas my sister cleaned my house just before Thanksgiving. (she even washed my curtains) That was the best gift I got. I felt the need to get my house back in shape. It is funny how it just falls apart like that. We brought all of Ashton's things home and well it looked like his bedroom threw-up!

On Wednesday, I went back to work while my Dad went to have surgery. He has a pacemaker that got an infection on the skin above where it is placed. Antibiotics didn't take care of it so the drs thought they would open up the skin and remove the infection. Well, as it turns out it was to much of an infection. So the drs decided they are going to replace the pacemaker and put it in a different location. They couldn't get one of the leads off of his heart so they called in a specialist who removed it. By then my dad had been under for 6 hours so they decide they were going to put a temporary pacemake in and finish up on Friday (yesterday).

Carl and I are going to go see him Wed. As we are walking into the hospital I passed out!! It was scary cause I was pushing Ashton in the umbrella stoller and I brought him down with me. He is just fine but I cracked my head a good one. It is hospital policy that if an emergency happenes outside the door an ambulance needs to be called. So I got to ride in the ambulance around the hospital! Oh I don't want to think about the bill for that!! The drs their couldn't find anything wrong with me and no I am not pregnant. That is what my mother was hoping for! Anyway, the Drs their wouldn't let me drive so I am off from work until Tuesday! (have the weekend and New Year's day off anyway). I finally got into the hospital to see my Dad on Thursday with no incidence's! LOL He did fine with the surgery on Friday and should get out of the hospital today.

Now you are up to date with my life. Told you alot has happened. I don't think I ever wrote this much but for my first post!! Here is a lot of photos!! You may have to look back a page for the pictures I am going to post!!

The post I didn't think would happen.

My friend Lisa called me today to tell me that Lilly has gone to heaven. I can't believe it. I just can't! Words can't express what I am feeling for her right now. Reasons unknown. I am in shock and I am angry. Why did she lose her? Why? It is bad enough when we experience this loss but to have to have 2 of them. I am just so sad right now. I would like for you to keep her and her family in your thoughts and prayers.

No doubt Ashton is Carl's!

This is just one of many great photos!

Wow a Month gone by!

I have been a really bad blogger lately! I am just so busy trying to keep Ashton out of things! He is on the go from the moment he wakes up until he is back sleeping again. I am only able to post this because he is now sleeping!

Let see, not much has happened! Work and life with Ashton. That about sums it up. This weekend I am going to NYC. It should be fun. I have driven through NYC more times than I care to remember but I never got to stop and visit. It is just a day trip. We will leave at 4am! and leave NYC at 7pm. This trip is just that a ride. It is up to us to do what we want when we get there. I want to see Ellis Island and Ground Zero. I would love to see a broadway show but those tickets are hard to come by and expensive! Oh how I wish FAO Swartz was still there! I will put pictures up when I get a chance to.

I have Ashtons Christmas photos and there are great! I have to work with a program to edit them that I am not used to so it may take a few days. I will post them too. We have done alot of shopping for Ashton for Christmas even though I said I wasn't going to buy much because he would be happy with just a box. Yes we have gone over board! My mother keeps reminding me that Ashton's birthday is just a month after Christmas. Like I would forget!! I am really excited about this Christmas. It will be his first and the first time in 3 years that I haven't been pregnant at Christmas. I will finally be able to enjoy the dinner!

I have been thinking of the second baby alot lately. I feel guilty for wanting another when I know so many women who haven't had their first yet. Am I wrong to want another? I love being a mom. It is the best job I have ever had. Yes, I am exhausted pretty much all the time now but I really don't care. My life is Ashton and I would love to have another. Carl and I are hoping to use our frozen embryos in the spring time. I just hope we can afford to do it. It isn't nearly as expensive to use them as it is to do all of the IVF. There are alot of women that I was pregnant with on pregnancy weekly that are now going to have their second and I am still jealous. Why is that? Infertility never ends even when you have one. It just hurts to see others get pregnant so easily. I know that other women can say that about me that the IVF took 2 times and you have one. I don't even know if any of what I have written makes sense or not. It just a feeling.

Me and Lisa!

Lisa and Ashton!

Lisa's Baby Shower!!!!

Mommy Please Get me Out of this Costume! Its Hot!

My Little Horse!

Sometimes I just want to cry!

Pregnancy Weekly went down for about a week to upgrade their system. Since it has been back up I haven't been able to post or reply to any messages. I have contacted the site to try to get them to fix this. I have had one reply to my numerous emails. Basically, I am on my own I feel like. I really want to congratulate Susan for her BFP! I am so upset and mad because for me everything was going smooth with the site and now it seem like I am just not able to join in again. I am so sad about this. I made such wonderful friends there when I was pregnant with Lorna and they so helped me during my pregnancy with Ashton. What a bummer! I do hope that I get to join in sometime. :(

Last week, when we went to the parade I for got my digital camera!! We will have to wait for the pictures to be developed for me to post pictures of my little man in his first parade. It was so funny cause the first half of the parade he slept through! I heard so many times how cute "Future Champ" was! I have to admit that I was happy to show him off. It was a proud day for me cause everyone in town could know that he was mine! I met up with a couple from the church that I grew up in (I don't go there anymore) and they were so happy for Carl and I that we finally had a baby. They knew we were having trouble. It was a really good day!

Carl and I are back to working 12 hours shifts next week again. I so wish that our account could keep drivers. It sucks being short handed and having to work so much overtime. Yes, it is great money and we can use it cause since Ashton has been born we haven't been able to save any of it! LOL however, it just makes me so tired and it seems like it takes me months to recovery from them.

Next week, I am going to Lisa's baby shower. She is a women I met from the internet. When I lost Lorna she lost her son about a month later from a cord accident. If you go into my archives into Dec 05 you will see pictures of her and I together at my shower. My sister Sue is going with my to OH. She is going to entertain Ashton for the 5-6 hour drive! I so hope that he is in a good mood! It will be an adventure I am sure. Lisa is due Jan 4, 2007! She is having a baby girl, Lilly!I am giving her all the neutral clothes that I have. She is sure that she will go early. All of her other 3 have been born at 38 weeks. If that is the case she will get the tax deduction for the year! LOL I will post pictures next weekend when I get home. This time I will remember to bring the camera! LOL

9 months old today

I can hardly believe so much time has passed. It was 2 years ago on the 23rd that we found out that we were pregnant with Lorna. Last year, on this day I was 25 weeks and 1 day pregnant with Ashton! It seems like just yesterday. Today, Ashton and I are walking in the apple harvest parade with the soap box derby association that we are involved with. Later on I will post pictures of my little man. He is getting so big!

Funny Thing

Ashton loves to scream to hear his voice. He can get really loud! He loves it even more if you scream with him! That isn't the funny part, we have 8 cats and today while Ashton was screaming the cats ears were all as far back as they could go! One of my cats, Ben was looking at Ashton like "What are you doing? Why are you doing it? and Will you please stop!" It was funny to see. I didn't have my camara anywhere near so I didn't get to take a picture!

What has been going on?

Not much! LOL Just trying to get caught up on everything. I have been on day shift now for 2 weeks and it has been great! I have never had a day shift job! It has been great to see Ashton more. I love it! I still haven't found enough energy to get into a groove yet! LOL I know I will sometime! These are the balloons that we are releasing for infancy loss awareness day. I am having trouble with being able to put a paragraph in so it is a run on! LOL

Infancy loss awareness day

My first big boy bath!!

Look at me I am 8 months old!

Work.... Work.....

That about sums up everything! That is all I seem to do lately and when I do see Ashton, I am a walking zombie! I do have some good news on the work front though....... As of next week...... I am on permanent day shift!! Yeah!! 6:30am to 3:30pm!!!!

Ashton has been waking up when I get home and I swear it is because he misses me. Last night he was so tired but chose to cry to wake himself up. I am so glad that I will be on day shift and maybe just maybe I wont' be so tired!

Finally!

Ashton rolled over today! I have been doing a lot of tummy time with him. I was starting to get a little worried! I am so excited and sad at the same time. Excited that he did it but also sad that he is growing! It is a no win situation.

Just a few pics! (Now that I can!)

So so tired!

Close up of the sleepy boy!

One tired Mommy and sleepy baby

Dinner with Daddy

The best sound in the world

It was Ashton's heartbeating. It was Ashton's first cry. Now it is the sound of Ashton saying "MAMA" over and over again!

This morning I was bombed with MAMA over and over again! Yes, I think it is official. He is saying his first word. It is wonderful and I am so thankful that he is here with me.

Ok here is another

Is is slightly blurry. It isn't your eyesight. This is Ashton in his jumperoo. He loves it!!

Our computer is up and running!!

I am so happy!!!! We finally have our computer back!!! It is great! I have lost my picture program that I am fimiliar with so I am having to use another and well it is taking some time so I will be posting more pics but it may just take me longer for now!I can't believe how big Ashton is now!

Wow!

I can't believe that it has been almost a month since I updated last! Where is time going? I can't believe how fast time is moving now! Ashton is now 7 months old. I so wish that I could share some pictures with you. Our computer is still getting worked on. The computer is now on the last phase of getting fixed so hopefully we will have it back within a week or two. I miss sharing my little guy with everyone! This computer can do the photos but it is so so slow on the upload that it may take a day or so to upload! LOL

What is going on? Not much! Work has been playing change up with my schedule so I have been so tired. I can's seem to get much done never the less get on the computer and keep everything updated! I am really sorry to everyone who comes here hoping for an update or photos. I wish I had more energy. I have none! Yesterday I cleaned the mess of a house we are living in. It seems so hard to keep it clean when all you really want to do with your free time is sleep. The bad part of this is that I am also not sleeping well. So there you have it the update is I am tired! LOL

Ashton now has 2 teeth. He is sitting up on his own but not crawling yet. This would mean that he would have to be on his belly and he hates it there! He has said "Ma" a few times so hopefully "MaMa" won't be to much longer! It is great and sad to see all at the same time. Meaning he gets older by the second and before I know it he will be moving out of the house! I love him so much and he is such a joy to have. I am grateful every day for him.

Happy Anniversary!

Tomorrow is 13 years of marriage for us. Seems like only yesterday!

Lets See .........

Sorry it has been so long since I updated! I just never seem to have the time to get on the computer anymore. I only seem to want to sleep in my free time! I work 5pm to 2am. I get home go to bed and well, pray that Ashton will let me sleep for a little while! Usually he sleeps until 9-10am. He is really a good sleeper 'cause he goes to bed at 8pm!!! I then get up with him and entertain him! Then we lay down for a nap most days. That truly is my day.

So what exciting news do I have for you....... Well, Ashton was in a car wreck. It happened on 7-20. Grandad and Nana had him for the day (family helps me out so I can get some regular sleep) They usually take my car but since Carl was in Akron Oh. For the soap box derby race I was staying at my mother's house. They usually pick him up around 10 so I just left the car seat for them to put in their car. Everyone is ok. Their car was hit in the side. The wreck did $8000 damage to their 4-runner! I am so thankful that everyone is ok and so thankful at the same time that it was their car and not mine! LOL

More exciting news is that Ashton is now over 6months in age. I just can't believe how fast he is growing. It seems like just yesterday that I found out that I was pregnant. I do a lot of thinking about what I was doing this time last year, how far along I was ect.... I just can't believe how time has flown since he got here. I know my pregnancy didn't go that fast at all. Time is really a funny thing.

Ashton rolled over once and discovered that he will get to his belly and well, I don't think he is going to do it anytime soon again! LOL He hates to be on his stomach. He now can sit up for about 20 minutes at a time before he timbers over like a tree! Yesterday we went out to eat for lunch and he used a high chair for the first time.

Ashton had a drs appt Friday and he is now 18.8 pounds and 27 3/4inches long. He had his shots and did really well. He is now eating anything that I want to introduce to him. He got carrots last night and He doesn't like them! It is funny when he doesn't want to eat something 'cause he sticks his tongue out. Maybe if I can figure out how to get this computer to work with the photos I can get a picture of it. It is so funny.

I think you are now up to date with me! I hope that I can now update more often than I have been. I have just been so tired but being a MOM is so worth it.