U/S photo at 11 weeks and 6 days!

One day shy of being out of the first trimester!! Yea!! So far so good. Everything looks good! I will get my level 2 u/s in about 6-7 weeks! I go back to the dr again in 3 weeks but I don't see her because she will be on vacation!! LOL

About missed my appt today!!

She took this one and the baby moved so she gave me the one above this! I thought today was the 20th so I just about missed the appt!!

Meet my cat Yoda!

We call him YoYo! I am active and into everything! I love to make dough and that presents a problem to my mom cause I like to on her belly!

I picked up Lorna's headstone Monday.

It is still in my car. We won't put it into the ground just yet. The person who did it will come to put it in our back yard but he isn't available until we get back from vacation. So here is the picture of it anyway.

So we picked up the crib and furniture today for the baby's room

I know you all are thinking my God is that way to early to do!! Well, here is the story behind the crib in a nut shell. This is the one we had picked out and had on special order for Lorna. The order never got cancelled because the store never called and my father-in-law who is getting it for us never called to cancel either. The reason this all got missed was because we bought it the weekend before we found out Lorna had died. It was just something we forgot about. In June they called to say that it was in and we had 10 days to come pick it up. I told them what had happened. They don't do refunds just store credit so we went ahead and got the crib and stuff. We will need it right? Trying to be positive about this pregnancy!

My husband has been so superstitious lately. It has been terrible. He has now taking on the role of the worrier. He has been distant from this baby trying not to let his guard down ect. Not getting attached to it. Well, Friday I am hitting magic number 12 and I think it is hitting him that I am pregnant again. Anytime I say something like ouch or ooh I get the "What's wrong?"

Yesterday before picking up the crib we went to listen for the heartbeat with the Doppler. He couldn't find it. It had only been 5 minutes of searching and I could see the look on his face that was horrible. It was the look that he had with Lorna. I told him"Hey, you are trying to find a baby that is only 2 inches long!! Put it down and let me try!" As soon as the control was given over to me, I found the baby. What a relief! I think we may have to record Lorna's heartbeat off of that and then record this one so we can send it back!! I haven't made up my mind yet on them. It was wonderful to have. It is nice that anytime I am in a panic I can try but then again I have the remembrance of not finding a heartbeat once before.

I have another appointment on Friday with the dr so that I can go on vacation. I am doing well on the shots. I picked up the Lovenox on Friday at the pharmacy, I think that my insurance company will have something to say about it. For a 30 day supply, the cost was $981!! Not for us but the insurance will have to cover it!! I was totally shocked at the price. The heprin was about $100 a week. I won't be surprised if that one comes back to see if I can't be put on the Heprin again!!

On the Pregnancy weekly front congratulations to Heather M who got a BFP this week congratulations again!!!!!!!!!!!

My Dr's appt today!!

Well my fears were just fears. Everything went well and if you scroll down you will see the u/s photo of my big one! I am saying big one because I am now measuring ahead of schedule. Eight days to be exact. That is mathmatically impossible!! So my Dr has kept my due date at Feb 3 2006. She said the blood flow looked good. She just did a quick peek with the u/s to make sure everything was ok and to give me peace of mind. She is at least sensitive to me worrying all the time!!

My sugars have been terrible this week. I sent them in a day early last week because I just knew I was going to be on the sugar pill. Her office called me on Thursday and said that she would probably put me on the Glyburide on Monday when I came in because she wanted to see me first. Carl said to me she probably wants to put you on insulin. Carl and I discussed it this weekend and thought it would be a good idea. I can't drive on insulin so work has to keep me out. Anyway, that is exactly why she waited. She wanted to try everything that she can a little different because of our loss. She said I have delivered 1000's of women's babies healthy that have taken the Glyburide. I have delivered 10's of thousands with women on insulin. She said she would prefer me to be on the insulin because just in case my body had a weird reaction to it that stepped up the Lupus Anticoagulant. She said she didn't think so but since Glyburide has only been approved for a year she would rather use a classic that she knows for sure is safe. So 2 insulin shots to my routine.

She is taking me off the Heprin and putting me on Lovenox. My RE DR did tell me to prepare for the move. He only gave me enough for 6 weeks anyway. This is how we got on this subject. Lovenox is already ready to be giving. It is in the needle and comes totally ready to put it. I like simplicity. I also get to go from 2 shots of heprin down to 1. Lovenox is longer acting. She said at 36 weeks we will be moving back to heprin. Heprin has some side effects (that I didn't know about and didn't ask either) the main one is that if you don't get enough calcium it will take it directly from your bones. Lovenox doesn't do this. However if there is a problem Lovenox is harder to reverse the effects of where heprin there seems to be an antidote of some sort! Not to sure I totally understood all of it myself but I was happy with the appointment and the little bean is growing well.

Can you see the face!!

It is so weird when I blow it up with the photo shop!! Hope you see what I do!!

I flipped it over so you can see the baby better!

Its amazing that as soo as the photo was flipped the baby was seen very well.

Ok here is the u/s photo!!

The baby is on his/her head!!

Tomorrow is my OB appt!!

I am actually going to have an exam tomorrow. I am terrified. You know she had me come in 3 weeks ago for a talk. I was terrified then too. I just can't get over the fear that something will be wrong. I have all these bad memories from Feb. and they are now right there in the front on my mind! I feel like I am going crazy!! I hope everything is Ok and I hope I get wonderful news tomorrow and that I get u/s photo as well. Lot of hoping going on which scares me too. Everything is causing me to worry. Every little twinge and pain that I have I think am I ok? Is the baby alright? I am driving myself crazy!!!! Hope all goes well tomorrow for me!

We heard the baby's heartbeat with the Home Doppler!!

I was sad all last week because my original due date was coming up with Lorna. I was due July 2. Friday, Carl and I were laying in bed and he asked me if I wanted to try to hear the baby's heartbeat. Friday I was 9 weeks pregnant. Well, we did! We found it within in 10 mins of searching and I really felt like Lorna gave me a gift from above. She was telling me not to worry about her sibling and not to worry about her due date. I felt so happy when we heard it. We only heard if for a couple of seconds until the baby moved. My husband didn't want to chase after him or her!

I made it thru Saturday ok. We kept busy and I kept my mind of the fact that I should be toting a newborn with me. I know she would have been born in June but God had other plans for her. We set off fireworks on Saturday night and it was just me and Carl all evening. It was a nice day.

Sunday we celebrated Carl's birthday with a surprise party for him. My best friend and his best friend are married and they did everything!! We set off more fireworks and had a really good time! I had a lot of fun.

Monday is Carl's birthday and he decided he wanted to go to Baltimore to see the fireworks on the Harbor. We took his parents and my 2 nephews and Talor and Lexie with us. Everyone was telling us we were nuts for taking the kids with us. I don't consider them kids anymore. Well not so much. They are 17, 14, 13, 12. Teenagers!! We ate at Phillips at the Harbor. We had them sing to Carl and another guy there it was his birthday too. He came up to Carl and asked how old he was before he stopped believing that the fireworks were set off for him!! We had a good laugh about that! Carl believe until his parents got divorced and he was carted off to England where they don't celebrate the 4th. The fireworks and dinner was wonderful

I did have spotting on the 4th. I just knew I was going to. I had a cyst appear just inside when I was pregnant with Lorna at 14 weeks. It ruptured and I spotted then too. I knew it had come back and I could see it this time. I figured with all the walking it would rupture. I just couldn't check until I got home. Well, that is exactly what it was. Thank God for that. Well ladies that was my holiday weekend. I have an appointment on Monday with the DR and I will be getting a u/s at that time. Hope all is well! Have a great hump day!