Nervous, Nerves

Ok I was handling being preggo and nervous OK but the last few days have been horrible for me.

I still have my doppler and yes I use it everyday even though I can feel her move. However, in the last few days she has been moving a little less (which I know is suppose to happen, just can't tell my brain that) and I have noticed some slow down in her heart rate. Like last night it was down at 120-125 which is freaking me out but really what can I do. Go sit at L&D just for them to send me home when it comes back up. This happened with Ashton so I know this is what would happen.

Yes her Heart rate has come back up but that is what is so terrifiying for me. Ashton, did this right about this time in his pregnancy (31 weeks), I sat in L&D a lot for the very same reason. Then when I was induced with him he had a terrible time. His heart rate kept dropping etc....... I just remember how terrified I was the last few weeks of his pregnancy.

I just hope and pray that this little miracle is going to be the true miracle for Carl and I to keep. I get so nervous knowing that at anytime during a pregnancy maybe the last moment. It is extrememely nerve wrecking! I thought I would be better this time but I am not. Actually the closer I get the worse I feel about it. I just can't help myself. How am I ever going to make the next 70 days???

U/S!!!

Hayley looks really good!! She is weighing about 2 pound 15oz (+/- 3oz)She was really active and again they had a hard time getting any photos of her. The office just got the 3/4d u/s machine! I was really excited to have it done! They couldn't print the photos off in color yet but I got to see her on the monitor with color. Let me tell you she looks exactly like Carl!

Her Face and hand


Her smiling


Her face


Her foot!

28.1 Week Belly Photos and Ashton Photos!

Here I am today 28w1d belly photo!

I can't believe how big I am!!

Here is Ashton playing on his coaster! I guess he is bored with it now because he stands up and rides the track. He also rocks the coaster until it spills over on him!

The stool that Ashton is standing on was a neighbor of mine. They were like grandparents to me. They passed away in 1999. I used to stand on this stool and help Mrs. Green bake cookies. When he was standing there at the sink that is all I could think about!

Happy Angel Birthday Lorna!

I won't be able to post tomorrow so I am doing this a day early. Again, this year it is to cold to send her up balloons so I guess we will do it when we have a warm day. I was going to do it yesterday. It was so warm here but the wind was so bad. I just knew it would get stuck in a tree. I can't believe that my angel has been gone 3 years. It seems like only yesterday.

Happy Birthday Lorna. Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. We think of you everday.