Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Pictures!!!!!
Ashton helping to decorate the Christmas Tree
Dec 4, 2008
Putting the tree up Dec 3, 2008
Dec 4, 2008
Forgotten ornaments
Nov 30, 2008. We put up a daybed in Ashton's room.
November 22, 2008. Hayley in Ashton's jumperoo. She loves it. Ashton used to fall asleep just like this.
November 23, 2008
October 31, 2008. Hayley's costume didn't have a hood on it. Ashton didn't want to wear his so we put it on her and were calling her the pumpkasaurus
October 31, 2008. Ashton and Daddy trick or treating
The one of very few photos we got with the hood on.
October 11, 2008. We went to a pumpkin patch
October 11, 2008. Ashton and his cousin Trinton. They are 3 months apart. This is the best photo I have of them. I wish they were both looking at me.
Ashton and his Granddad at the pumpkin patch. We took a hay ride.
Ashton and Trinton
I have a photo from last year that looks so similar to this one.
December 3, 2008.
Dec 4, 2008
Putting the tree up Dec 3, 2008
Dec 4, 2008
Forgotten ornaments
Nov 30, 2008. We put up a daybed in Ashton's room.
November 22, 2008. Hayley in Ashton's jumperoo. She loves it. Ashton used to fall asleep just like this.
November 23, 2008
October 31, 2008. Hayley's costume didn't have a hood on it. Ashton didn't want to wear his so we put it on her and were calling her the pumpkasaurus
October 31, 2008. Ashton and Daddy trick or treating
The one of very few photos we got with the hood on.
October 11, 2008. We went to a pumpkin patch
October 11, 2008. Ashton and his cousin Trinton. They are 3 months apart. This is the best photo I have of them. I wish they were both looking at me.
Ashton and his Granddad at the pumpkin patch. We took a hay ride.
Ashton and Trinton
I have a photo from last year that looks so similar to this one.
December 3, 2008.
Friday, December 05, 2008
Our babycicles are going to a good home
Carl and I decided that we are not going to try to have any more children so we had to decide what we were going to do with our babycicles. We couldn't sign the paperwork for them to be destroyed. We now know what wonderful children they could be. They may only be 6-8 cells but they are babies to us.
When we first started to think about adopting them we thought of the parents that we were going to give them to. We thought we wanted parents that had been married a long time (10 years). We wanted parents that had been trying to conceive for 5 years.
We posted a ad for them on miracles waiting web site for them. It is a web sight to help people with the aspects of adopting embryos and to help people find each other. I got about 75 responses to our ad. We found the couple there. I am happy for them and happy that they wanted all 9 of them. They want to try to have 2 babies from them. I thougt this to be wonderful. That if there are 2 then they are biologically related. I hope and pray that everything works out and that they have to beautiful babies. My prayers are with them.
When we first started to think about adopting them we thought of the parents that we were going to give them to. We thought we wanted parents that had been married a long time (10 years). We wanted parents that had been trying to conceive for 5 years.
We posted a ad for them on miracles waiting web site for them. It is a web sight to help people with the aspects of adopting embryos and to help people find each other. I got about 75 responses to our ad. We found the couple there. I am happy for them and happy that they wanted all 9 of them. They want to try to have 2 babies from them. I thougt this to be wonderful. That if there are 2 then they are biologically related. I hope and pray that everything works out and that they have to beautiful babies. My prayers are with them.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Work and some more work
Well, that about sums up what I am going to be doing for the next few weeks. This week I worked 64 hours and then came home to the 2 little ones. So I am pretty much exhausted!! I will be working about 60 hours for the next few weeks so that will explain my absence. I hope to post some pictures but I can't seem to remember where I put my camera after Halloween. They looked so cute!!
Ashton is starting to potty train!! YEA!!!! He is touch and go right now as to whether or not he wants to even sit on the potty. He gets frustrated if he can't do it. Last Tues a week ago was the first he peed on the potty and he was so proud of himself! Then we couldn't get him to even go near it all week. On wed of this week he decided to go again. Nothing Thurs or Friday and then today he went again. It is weird cause he knows when he is going to go. It is a decision on his part as to if he is going to take time from playing to go!! Hayley maybe potty trained before him LOL
As for Hayley, she learned to sit up and stay up this week and she learned to clap. It is adorable. She is adorable!! I hate to work so much when she is going to do things for the first time.
We went and go our Christmas photos done today and that completes my shopping for Christmas. I am sure that we will buy some more (not much we can't afford it!) but mainly it is done. Believe it or not we did all our shopping at Kohls (if you recall this is where we are now employed as contractors) We got friends and family discount coupons 15% and with sale items we were getting really good buys on the toys!! I bought Hayley some clothes for next summer that cost us about $3 for an outfit.
Pray that I find my camera and that I make it through the next few weeks with working so much. I am going to miss coming here and seeing what is going on. If I find my camera tomorrow. I am going to clean my house, I will post some pictures then.
Ashton is starting to potty train!! YEA!!!! He is touch and go right now as to whether or not he wants to even sit on the potty. He gets frustrated if he can't do it. Last Tues a week ago was the first he peed on the potty and he was so proud of himself! Then we couldn't get him to even go near it all week. On wed of this week he decided to go again. Nothing Thurs or Friday and then today he went again. It is weird cause he knows when he is going to go. It is a decision on his part as to if he is going to take time from playing to go!! Hayley maybe potty trained before him LOL
As for Hayley, she learned to sit up and stay up this week and she learned to clap. It is adorable. She is adorable!! I hate to work so much when she is going to do things for the first time.
We went and go our Christmas photos done today and that completes my shopping for Christmas. I am sure that we will buy some more (not much we can't afford it!) but mainly it is done. Believe it or not we did all our shopping at Kohls (if you recall this is where we are now employed as contractors) We got friends and family discount coupons 15% and with sale items we were getting really good buys on the toys!! I bought Hayley some clothes for next summer that cost us about $3 for an outfit.
Pray that I find my camera and that I make it through the next few weeks with working so much. I am going to miss coming here and seeing what is going on. If I find my camera tomorrow. I am going to clean my house, I will post some pictures then.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
My Babycicles
Carl and I are done having babies. We both feel like our family is complete. I also feel like we wouldn't be able to afford another! I can't work while I am pregnant and money gets tight! Anyway, we have 9 embryo's frozen. We are going to adopt them to another couple. What type of questions would you be asking them? They are on my mind alot these days.
As for Hayley she is better it took almost a week before she got better!! I can't believe that on the first she is going to be 6months old!!
I hope to post some pictures soon.
As for Hayley she is better it took almost a week before she got better!! I can't believe that on the first she is going to be 6months old!!
I hope to post some pictures soon.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Through the Eyes of the Infertile
I saw a woman at Walmart the other day. She gave a look at my children and then at me. I know that look. It is the look of the infertile. A look of happiness, pain, sorrow and longing. I know this look. I have had it myself many times. I know it all to well.
She doesn't know of all the heartache I have had to have my children. She doesn't know of all the surgeries and pain that I have experienced. She doesn't know that I have had fertility treatments. She doesn't know that I have two children that aren't with me but in Heaven. She doesn't know that Ashton is an IVF baby. What she doesn't understand is that I have walked in her shoes for many years.
When I had that look I never once looked at a mother and thought of her story or if she even had one to tell. I just looked at the children and would think of how much I wanted to have one. I would think of God and wonder if He was ever going to give me a child of my own. I would have feelings of jealousy. She had what I wanted so bad. I would look at young moms and just be angry. I would see moms yelling at their kids in public and it would make me mad. I had so much longing it hurt.
It hurt every time someone would give their opinion as to why we couldn't have children. There are so many things you hear when you are infertile. "You just need to relax", "It will happen just wait and see", "Stop fretting", "You will have time for children later", "I never thought you wanted to have children" (my mother), "Your still young enjoy your youth", "It must not be the right time for a child if God hasn't given you one" . That women doesn't know that I have heard them all too.
Her look brought back so memories of all the hurt, pain and loss. I wanted to run to her and tell her everything is going to be all right. I wanted to hug her and tell her that I have been in her shoes. I wanted to give her hope. However,stories of success only hurt. Yes I know that is suppose to give you hope but for me it left me thinking that I wouldn't be that one. It left me feeling hopeless. Those stories of success were someone else. They weren't me. Things like that don't happen for me. A kind of "Woe is me" feeling. There was nothing I could say to her.
I never thought I was going to have children. If you would be able to talk to the 33 year old me. She would tell you that there is no way that in matter of 4 years I would have two children. She would say that it is impossible to get pregnant. She would say that even if I get pregnant I won't carry the baby. She would say that there is something wrong her. She just wouldn't believe the next 4 years. I still don't believe it. It is an amazing story to tell yet that women will never know it.
She doesn't know of all the heartache I have had to have my children. She doesn't know of all the surgeries and pain that I have experienced. She doesn't know that I have had fertility treatments. She doesn't know that I have two children that aren't with me but in Heaven. She doesn't know that Ashton is an IVF baby. What she doesn't understand is that I have walked in her shoes for many years.
When I had that look I never once looked at a mother and thought of her story or if she even had one to tell. I just looked at the children and would think of how much I wanted to have one. I would think of God and wonder if He was ever going to give me a child of my own. I would have feelings of jealousy. She had what I wanted so bad. I would look at young moms and just be angry. I would see moms yelling at their kids in public and it would make me mad. I had so much longing it hurt.
It hurt every time someone would give their opinion as to why we couldn't have children. There are so many things you hear when you are infertile. "You just need to relax", "It will happen just wait and see", "Stop fretting", "You will have time for children later", "I never thought you wanted to have children" (my mother), "Your still young enjoy your youth", "It must not be the right time for a child if God hasn't given you one" . That women doesn't know that I have heard them all too.
Her look brought back so memories of all the hurt, pain and loss. I wanted to run to her and tell her everything is going to be all right. I wanted to hug her and tell her that I have been in her shoes. I wanted to give her hope. However,stories of success only hurt. Yes I know that is suppose to give you hope but for me it left me thinking that I wouldn't be that one. It left me feeling hopeless. Those stories of success were someone else. They weren't me. Things like that don't happen for me. A kind of "Woe is me" feeling. There was nothing I could say to her.
I never thought I was going to have children. If you would be able to talk to the 33 year old me. She would tell you that there is no way that in matter of 4 years I would have two children. She would say that it is impossible to get pregnant. She would say that even if I get pregnant I won't carry the baby. She would say that there is something wrong her. She just wouldn't believe the next 4 years. I still don't believe it. It is an amazing story to tell yet that women will never know it.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Photos as promised
Hayley in her Bumbo seat. She is 4 months old.
Ashton and Hayley. Don't they look alike?
Daddy and Hayley she is 4 months old
I have been having a hard time getting Hayley to sleep in her crib. She likes her mobile to much!
Hayley in her Bumbo seat at 3 months
I took my shower and this is where I found Ashton. He was sleeping when I went in!
We went to the national zoo. It was so hot that day. We went in July
Ashton was watching TV in his room
Ashton held us captive in our house with the hose!
This is Carl's sister Jessica with Hayley she was 8 weeks old
My niece Andrea and the kids
Got Milk?? (yes its spit up but its funny)
Daddy and Hayley (3months old)
Ashton and Hayley. Don't they look alike?
Daddy and Hayley she is 4 months old
I have been having a hard time getting Hayley to sleep in her crib. She likes her mobile to much!
Hayley in her Bumbo seat at 3 months
I took my shower and this is where I found Ashton. He was sleeping when I went in!
We went to the national zoo. It was so hot that day. We went in July
Ashton was watching TV in his room
Ashton held us captive in our house with the hose!
This is Carl's sister Jessica with Hayley she was 8 weeks old
My niece Andrea and the kids
Got Milk?? (yes its spit up but its funny)
Daddy and Hayley (3months old)
Yes I am alive
It has been a long time since I updated my blog!! Having 2 children really does take all of your time. So much has gone on and adjusting to our new life has had its challenges! I promise I will update on photos this weekend. I will have a ton of them.
Since I posted last time, Hayley is getting so big and well she is already 4 months old! My how time flys. I was able to breast feed her until Aug when I went back to work. It was great to be able to do it this time. I would have been able to do it with Ashton had I known all that I know now. I wish that I didn't have to go back to work. I would still be breast feeding. I tried after going back to work it was just to much hassle and time consuming to do.
Ashton is getting big as well. He is already over 3 feet tall. Over half of my height! He is talking so much. He has always been a talker but now he is saying so many words. He will engage in a conversation and will start one if he has something to say. He is the typical 2 year old. He has many tantrums! He loves having his sister. It is so funny that it seems he doesn't remember being the only child. It is like she has been here all of his life.
If you don't remember I lost my job (we lost the account) I was able to find another one that started Aug. 1 doing the same thing that I was doing before. I have to travel farther but that is OK. It is a job and I know that many are looking for work right now. It is going well. Carl decided to leave Schneider and come with me to the new company National Freight Inc. He is driving locally for them on the new account. Kohls. All he does is drive to the stores and drop his trailer and pick up the old one. He really likes it alot. His hours are all over the place though and he never has the same day off. The insurance doesn't kick in until Jan and they let you have a supplemental insurance. Which well sucks. I hope Ashton doesn't break his arm!
I am in a rountine of sorts. It has been difficult trying to get into one with 2 of them on different sleep patterns. Hayley has been a great sleeper! She has been sleeping through the night since 2 months but she is am and Ashton after I went back to work has gone to the evening shift. I am working 2pm to 10 pm. Ashton hasn't been going to bed until midnight! Hayley is up at 6-7am so I am sleep deprived everyday. Once in a blue moon someone will take them from me and I get a nap. Those naps are the best sleep I get! I should be sleeping right now because Carl is home and could take the kiddos for me but I am here updating you all. I am sure that there isn't many readers left!
I will post pictures tomorrow I won't promise but hope. Anything is possible to get in my way with 2 of them!!
Since I posted last time, Hayley is getting so big and well she is already 4 months old! My how time flys. I was able to breast feed her until Aug when I went back to work. It was great to be able to do it this time. I would have been able to do it with Ashton had I known all that I know now. I wish that I didn't have to go back to work. I would still be breast feeding. I tried after going back to work it was just to much hassle and time consuming to do.
Ashton is getting big as well. He is already over 3 feet tall. Over half of my height! He is talking so much. He has always been a talker but now he is saying so many words. He will engage in a conversation and will start one if he has something to say. He is the typical 2 year old. He has many tantrums! He loves having his sister. It is so funny that it seems he doesn't remember being the only child. It is like she has been here all of his life.
If you don't remember I lost my job (we lost the account) I was able to find another one that started Aug. 1 doing the same thing that I was doing before. I have to travel farther but that is OK. It is a job and I know that many are looking for work right now. It is going well. Carl decided to leave Schneider and come with me to the new company National Freight Inc. He is driving locally for them on the new account. Kohls. All he does is drive to the stores and drop his trailer and pick up the old one. He really likes it alot. His hours are all over the place though and he never has the same day off. The insurance doesn't kick in until Jan and they let you have a supplemental insurance. Which well sucks. I hope Ashton doesn't break his arm!
I am in a rountine of sorts. It has been difficult trying to get into one with 2 of them on different sleep patterns. Hayley has been a great sleeper! She has been sleeping through the night since 2 months but she is am and Ashton after I went back to work has gone to the evening shift. I am working 2pm to 10 pm. Ashton hasn't been going to bed until midnight! Hayley is up at 6-7am so I am sleep deprived everyday. Once in a blue moon someone will take them from me and I get a nap. Those naps are the best sleep I get! I should be sleeping right now because Carl is home and could take the kiddos for me but I am here updating you all. I am sure that there isn't many readers left!
I will post pictures tomorrow I won't promise but hope. Anything is possible to get in my way with 2 of them!!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Lots and Lots of Pictures
Grampie and Hayley. She is 5 weeks old
Ashton in Hayley's playmat!!
June 13, 2008. After a hard day at Aunt DeeDoo's house
This is Lexie, she won the soap box race in the master's division!! Congratulations! She is a neice! She will go and compete in Ohio in July!
May 19, 2008. The first time in the Gym for Ashton! He is now a pro!!
Hayley getting baptized 6/1/08
Great Aunt Betty and Hayley. 6/1/08
Grandad, Nanny and Hayley. 6/1/08
Godparents, Darren, Robin, their daughter Courtney (our goddaughter) and Hayley.6/1/08
Pastor Terri and Hayley. 6/1/08
Ashton and his swing set
Ashton and his swing set
Hayley growing out of her outfits already at 3 week!
Hayley and Gramie. 3 weeks old
6/1/08 This is the first full family photo we have. It only took 4 weeks!!
5/24/08 Hayley at her first soap box race.
5/16/08. Hayley's first tub bath.
Ashton at the playland at Burger King
Hayley is to tired to play at Burger King!
Carl and Ashton playing with his swing set.
Ashton in Hayley's playmat!!
June 13, 2008. After a hard day at Aunt DeeDoo's house
This is Lexie, she won the soap box race in the master's division!! Congratulations! She is a neice! She will go and compete in Ohio in July!
May 19, 2008. The first time in the Gym for Ashton! He is now a pro!!
Hayley getting baptized 6/1/08
Great Aunt Betty and Hayley. 6/1/08
Grandad, Nanny and Hayley. 6/1/08
Godparents, Darren, Robin, their daughter Courtney (our goddaughter) and Hayley.6/1/08
Pastor Terri and Hayley. 6/1/08
Ashton and his swing set
Ashton and his swing set
Hayley growing out of her outfits already at 3 week!
Hayley and Gramie. 3 weeks old
6/1/08 This is the first full family photo we have. It only took 4 weeks!!
5/24/08 Hayley at her first soap box race.
5/16/08. Hayley's first tub bath.
Ashton at the playland at Burger King
Hayley is to tired to play at Burger King!
Carl and Ashton playing with his swing set.
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