Induction is set for Thursday!

I hope all goes well!! My cervix has to be ready. Not exactly sure what that means. a week ago last monday I was 3cm and 75%. The dr who I saw on Monday didn't check it then. (not my regular dr)

I have been feeling guilty that Ashton won't be my only child anymore. It hit really hard this evening and has made me cry!! I went to Walmart and bought him a new video and let him pretend play on the video machines Tomorrow he goes with Gramie all day long. I am not going to take that from him just so I see him all day!

4am thoughts!

How amazing is it that I am pregnant? How amazing it is that I am pregnant natrually? How amazing is to feel Hayley move? How amazing it is that I am 15 days from having a bundle of joy that should never have been? What a survivor this one is? She just shouldn't be! She has overcome so much to be here! First that I o'd on my own! 2nd that Carl and I even had sex to conceive her! 3rd that his tropper found the right direction! 4th that I took provera to bring on AF and she never came! 5th that she found the right place to implant! 6th that she developed a HB! 7th that I even discovered that I was preggo at all and able to get on the right meds at that time! 8th that we made it past the 1st, 2nd and now 3rd trimesters. 9th that I am going to be holding a baby soon that I never thought in a million years would ever be! 10th I just can't believe any of it.

What an amazing journey she has already been on. I sit here and just think of how none of this would have crossed my mind just 3 years ago after losing Lorna. I never thought I would be that one that would get preggo after 12 yrs of infertility 2 losses 1 child. Carl and I in Aug will celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary..........................I can't believe that it has been that long............................ I never thought I would have one child let alone 2! What a joy it is to have been blessed with her! I am overly anxious to meet this miracle! I thought Ashton was a miracle...this one just blows my mind as to how she even came to be....

I am nervous about giving birth to her. Nervous that something may go wrong in the next 15 days. Nervous that there maybe something wrong etc..... I remember having all of these feelings with Ashton. However with this pregnancy already having overcome all the odds, I just can't help but be amazed when I allow myself to think that I am preggo at all!

OK I can't sleep tonight, I am more miserable than ever and yet I am happy to be feeling this way at all!!!!!!!!

3cm dialated and 75% effaced!

Had my NST this morning. Hayley passed with flying colors. I am having regular contractions. I am not feeling them all yet! The ones that I am feeling are about every 10 mins or so. Hopefully won't be much longer now! My dr did say to me that she was on call Friday so hopefully that will mean something then!! LOL

Shower/ Belly and Ashton Photos!

Here is a picture of something I said I was never going to do! Yes we put a TV in Ashton's room! I am so sick of Thomas and Bob!

Sleeping on the floor in his room

Yes Ashton took a nap in his bed!! We are co-sleeping so even though he was only there for 20 minutes he was still there!

"Mommy, I have stickers on my head!"


NST today. Hayley passed with flying colors. I have a ton of fluid. I am having contractions but not in any pattern yet! I am 2cm dialated and 50%! So I hope we go sooner than expected. Last week they did a weight check and well, she was estimated at 7lbs already!
36.4week belly photo from Today!!




Pictures from my baby shower April 5

NST and a ton of Pictures!!!

My first NST was yesterday and Hayley passed with flying colors!! I am so relieved!!! I hope she continues to do well! My dr is talking about an induction in the 39th week so that means I will probably have a May baby if I don't go into labor first! I wanted to go in the 38th week! I am already miserable and can't sleep!! Also I had the AVI done, this is where they measure the fluid. Looks like I have to much just like with Ashton. It is OK though. I gained 41lbs with him and walked out of the hospital 31lbs lighter! I have only gained 25 with her so far! So keeping my fingers crossed that I will weigh less after having her! LOL Yeah right! I am dreaming I know!

Hayley's nursery is done!!!! We went with a little girl theme so we didn't have to change her room at 2 like we have had to do with Ashton's room. Pictures of this are included as well!






















Easter Egg Hunting at home!


We changed Ashton's room as well. He was growing out of the Winnie the Pooh. We got really lucky because we didn't have to paint!!








At the church for Easter Egg Hunt

At home for Easter Egg Hunt. He really did have a good time!