Another appointment!

I had another appointment today. Everything looks really good! My Dr peaked in with the u/s machine. She said everything looks great! Heart was pumping away!! I looked at the picture on the screen and I would swear he had his feet by his ears! LOL Anyway, she asked if she had told us the sex or not and I said yes. She said he is a definitely little boy! I guess he was showing his stuff! I feel very excited and nervous all at the same time. I am scared to be excited!

Growing Pains!

I have them! They are freaking me out for the most part. Thank God for the Doppler. I called the DR to be sure that what I was feeling was round ligament pain! They assured me that is what I am feeling. I sure wish I could not be in such a state of constant panic. It is extremely hard not to worry about every ache and pain but I sure am. I only have 19 more weeks of this worry. Then I get to worry on a whole new level!

Halfway!!!

Well, yesterday anyway! I can't believe that I made it to this point. I am very excited about being here. I am still very much terrified that we can lose this one too. My and DH's guard is still up. I just got an email from baby center about signing up for birthing classes. Am I wrong does this seem just a tad bit early?? Any advice would be nice. I wanted to make a post yesterday but I was so busy trying to get the house straight and get us packed so we could go racing this weekend.

We got up at 2:15am. We have a four hour drive ahead of us! It is tiring to race this way but we are trying not to spend so much money. We get over to my mother's house and switch to our truck (that was hooked to the trailer yesterday). We get in and go. We aren't even to the interstate yet and WHAMMMM!!!!! Deer ran out in front of us and we centered it with our truck! YUCK!! Well, we get to the place where we are meeting my sister and we can smell something burning (probably just fur) The deer pushed our bumper into the grill some and we were afraid that we have damage to the radiator. There wasn't anything leaking yet that we could see but it was so dark and well we just didn't want to take the chance that the truck might break down away from the house! WE DIDN'T GO! I AM SO DISAPPOINTED! I LOVE RACING!

Today is the day!!

I am 19 weeks and 2 days along. This is the day that I have been so scared of because this is the time that I lost Lorna at. I haven't posted much here or anywhere all week long just trying to deal with my nerves. I know that everything on the 2nd looked great with Ashton but they did with Lorna and we lost her 10 days later. So I have been using my doppler about 4x a day!! Just for reassurance and the DR even said that I could! Anyway, I woke up last night at 2am and checked to be sure he was still with us and he was. I woke up again at 7am and checked again and he is still here. Tomorrow I am treading on fresh waters! I do hope that I can let go of some of these fears and truly enjoy this pregnancy. When you have lost like we have the innocence of pregnancy is gone and fear of the unknown becomes what you think about.

Everyone I would like for you to see

Ashton Lee Pleasants. Yes we are having a boy. This u/s sound today was sooo amazing. We got to see him move (something Lorna didn't do for us) Everytime the tech went to take a picture, he moved. She thought that is was going to be a gril but he showed himself for the dr when she came in!! My Dr also thinks that this baby is extremely healthy and looks good. She understands that it is our loss time(about) and was willing to see me next week just so that it would calm my fears. However I turned that down because we have the doppler at home. She said she felt like this baby was going to make it. I am calm today but I will go back to worring tomorrow!

This is my beautiful profile

At the bottom you can see my feet. I had them crossed

This is looking down at my skull

This is my butt with my legs!

This is a picture of my hand but I moved.

This is the top of my head with my arms out.

This is my hand

You can see my ulnar and radius bones.

Looking down this is my face

and arms!