Finally!

He is fitting in the outfit I had wanted to bring him home in! It only took 5 weeks! LOL

Yesterday my blog was a year old!

I can't believe that it has been a year since I started this blog. What a year it has been!

We went to church last Sunday. My sister held him and wouldn't share him with anyone! She got sick Monday and has been very concerned that she gave him something. He has had a stuffy nose which has gotten worse this past week but I think he already had it. I put a humidifier in our room to help with his nose.

I have decided that I will go back to work this Wed and only have to deal with a half work week. I don't want to go but I think this has more to do with the fact that I have been out of work since May 11! and not the fact that I am having to leave Ashton. Carl and I are going to be working opposite shifts so we will not need my sister to watch Ashton. Even though I know she wants to watch him! I can't believe that he is already 5 weeks old.

That is about all I have in way of an update. It was a quite week. I am thankful for that. Carl took off Thurs and Fri. so that I could get some sleep!! I feel really good now.

I Can't Believe that it has been 4 weeks already!

I wish that my pregnancy had gone by that fast.

Doesn't he look like he is saying "take the picture already"

Sorry for No update!

I have just been so busy with Ashton and well, when I do have time I am just to tired! He does have his nights and days mixed up so I have been trying to get naps in the evening so I can be up with him during the night. He doesn't fuss. He is just awake! He is wonderful and beautiful and I am loving every minute of it.

Ashton is having some constipation problems. We had to give him a suppository and I felt so bad because I knew he was going to get cramps. He did move his bowels. We have been having to give him some prune juice to keep him going. He actually likes the prune juice and gulps at it! It is funny!

I called work to tell them I would like to come back to work on the 6th of March. It will be very hard for me. I don't want to leave him but I do have to go back to work! I really wish I could be the stay at home mom but we can't afford to do it. I went and had my DOT phyical done yesterday. I passed with no problems. Good! This means I don't have to have another one done for 2 years!

Congratulations to Jen on the birth of her Twins!

Ashton's First Tub Bath

This was also the first time I saw him cross his eyes!

Happy 1st Angel Birthday Lorna

Mommy and Daddy miss you! We love you!

These are the balloons we released to her.

One year ago today.

We found out that Lorna had left us. I am sad today. I know that I am blessed to have Ashton but it doesn't replace Lorna. I wonder about her. I wonder would she have been a good baby like Ashton is. I wonder what she would have been like. What she would have looked like? I know from the photos of her that she and Ashton look alike. I wonder about her all the time. Having Ashton will not replace the pain I feel about losing her.

I now know that she had a purpose in her short little life. I know that she is the reason that I have Ashton here with me. She is my beautiful angel in Heaven. I can't seem to help but cry over her and miss her and think about what might have been. I miss her. We bought balloons to release tomorrow for her and I will take photos of the balloon. I hope that she will have a beautiful birthday in Heaven tomorrow.

Always remembered and never forgotten - Lorna Ann Pleasants - A beautiful angel in Heaven! She is watching over her little brother and keeping him safe.

Changed my blog name!

If you hadn't noticed already I changed the name of the blog. I guess it needed to be done. My infertility journey is over now and I am now experiencing motherhood. I thought the name would let everyone know that having Ashton was not easy. Getting him here was not easy. Let me know what you think.

When I left the hospital my OB DR wanted me to think about the form of birth control I was going to use so that when I had my check-up (Feb 28) I could let them know. Here is my dilemma on this. It has cost us a small fortune to have Ashton. IVF's meds ect.... then once I was pregnant it wasn't easy either. However, the only time in my life that I have ever ovulated was after we lost Lorna. Should we go for the MAYBE FREEBIE???? I mean I don't want to go on the pill because I get terrible cramps on it. Yes I know that is opposite of what most experience. However I also would like to be regular! In my teens I was 2 weeks with and 2 weeks off. In my 20's I was never ending and ended with 2 d/c's because of periods that lasted over 6 months. I hit 30 and well they stopped coming altogether. I haven't had a period without some form of fertility medicine in the last 7 years. I am kind of scared to let things go and see what happens but I would also like to try for the Freebie baby. What do you all think???

One week old photo!!

Had a visit with the pediatrian yesterday. Ashton is now 7lbs and 20 inches long. He is only in the 10th percentile! Here we thought he was going to be big! Everything looks good with him and we will go back to the dr for his 8 week shots!

One day old photo!