Sometimes I just want to cry!

Pregnancy Weekly went down for about a week to upgrade their system. Since it has been back up I haven't been able to post or reply to any messages. I have contacted the site to try to get them to fix this. I have had one reply to my numerous emails. Basically, I am on my own I feel like. I really want to congratulate Susan for her BFP! I am so upset and mad because for me everything was going smooth with the site and now it seem like I am just not able to join in again. I am so sad about this. I made such wonderful friends there when I was pregnant with Lorna and they so helped me during my pregnancy with Ashton. What a bummer! I do hope that I get to join in sometime. :(

Last week, when we went to the parade I for got my digital camera!! We will have to wait for the pictures to be developed for me to post pictures of my little man in his first parade. It was so funny cause the first half of the parade he slept through! I heard so many times how cute "Future Champ" was! I have to admit that I was happy to show him off. It was a proud day for me cause everyone in town could know that he was mine! I met up with a couple from the church that I grew up in (I don't go there anymore) and they were so happy for Carl and I that we finally had a baby. They knew we were having trouble. It was a really good day!

Carl and I are back to working 12 hours shifts next week again. I so wish that our account could keep drivers. It sucks being short handed and having to work so much overtime. Yes, it is great money and we can use it cause since Ashton has been born we haven't been able to save any of it! LOL however, it just makes me so tired and it seems like it takes me months to recovery from them.

Next week, I am going to Lisa's baby shower. She is a women I met from the internet. When I lost Lorna she lost her son about a month later from a cord accident. If you go into my archives into Dec 05 you will see pictures of her and I together at my shower. My sister Sue is going with my to OH. She is going to entertain Ashton for the 5-6 hour drive! I so hope that he is in a good mood! It will be an adventure I am sure. Lisa is due Jan 4, 2007! She is having a baby girl, Lilly!I am giving her all the neutral clothes that I have. She is sure that she will go early. All of her other 3 have been born at 38 weeks. If that is the case she will get the tax deduction for the year! LOL I will post pictures next weekend when I get home. This time I will remember to bring the camera! LOL

9 months old today

I can hardly believe so much time has passed. It was 2 years ago on the 23rd that we found out that we were pregnant with Lorna. Last year, on this day I was 25 weeks and 1 day pregnant with Ashton! It seems like just yesterday. Today, Ashton and I are walking in the apple harvest parade with the soap box derby association that we are involved with. Later on I will post pictures of my little man. He is getting so big!

Funny Thing

Ashton loves to scream to hear his voice. He can get really loud! He loves it even more if you scream with him! That isn't the funny part, we have 8 cats and today while Ashton was screaming the cats ears were all as far back as they could go! One of my cats, Ben was looking at Ashton like "What are you doing? Why are you doing it? and Will you please stop!" It was funny to see. I didn't have my camara anywhere near so I didn't get to take a picture!

What has been going on?

Not much! LOL Just trying to get caught up on everything. I have been on day shift now for 2 weeks and it has been great! I have never had a day shift job! It has been great to see Ashton more. I love it! I still haven't found enough energy to get into a groove yet! LOL I know I will sometime! These are the balloons that we are releasing for infancy loss awareness day. I am having trouble with being able to put a paragraph in so it is a run on! LOL

Infancy loss awareness day

My first big boy bath!!

Look at me I am 8 months old!

Work.... Work.....

That about sums up everything! That is all I seem to do lately and when I do see Ashton, I am a walking zombie! I do have some good news on the work front though....... As of next week...... I am on permanent day shift!! Yeah!! 6:30am to 3:30pm!!!!

Ashton has been waking up when I get home and I swear it is because he misses me. Last night he was so tired but chose to cry to wake himself up. I am so glad that I will be on day shift and maybe just maybe I wont' be so tired!

Finally!

Ashton rolled over today! I have been doing a lot of tummy time with him. I was starting to get a little worried! I am so excited and sad at the same time. Excited that he did it but also sad that he is growing! It is a no win situation.

Just a few pics! (Now that I can!)

So so tired!

Close up of the sleepy boy!

One tired Mommy and sleepy baby

Dinner with Daddy

The best sound in the world

It was Ashton's heartbeating. It was Ashton's first cry. Now it is the sound of Ashton saying "MAMA" over and over again!

This morning I was bombed with MAMA over and over again! Yes, I think it is official. He is saying his first word. It is wonderful and I am so thankful that he is here with me.

Ok here is another

Is is slightly blurry. It isn't your eyesight. This is Ashton in his jumperoo. He loves it!!

Our computer is up and running!!

I am so happy!!!! We finally have our computer back!!! It is great! I have lost my picture program that I am fimiliar with so I am having to use another and well it is taking some time so I will be posting more pics but it may just take me longer for now!I can't believe how big Ashton is now!

Wow!

I can't believe that it has been almost a month since I updated last! Where is time going? I can't believe how fast time is moving now! Ashton is now 7 months old. I so wish that I could share some pictures with you. Our computer is still getting worked on. The computer is now on the last phase of getting fixed so hopefully we will have it back within a week or two. I miss sharing my little guy with everyone! This computer can do the photos but it is so so slow on the upload that it may take a day or so to upload! LOL

What is going on? Not much! Work has been playing change up with my schedule so I have been so tired. I can's seem to get much done never the less get on the computer and keep everything updated! I am really sorry to everyone who comes here hoping for an update or photos. I wish I had more energy. I have none! Yesterday I cleaned the mess of a house we are living in. It seems so hard to keep it clean when all you really want to do with your free time is sleep. The bad part of this is that I am also not sleeping well. So there you have it the update is I am tired! LOL

Ashton now has 2 teeth. He is sitting up on his own but not crawling yet. This would mean that he would have to be on his belly and he hates it there! He has said "Ma" a few times so hopefully "MaMa" won't be to much longer! It is great and sad to see all at the same time. Meaning he gets older by the second and before I know it he will be moving out of the house! I love him so much and he is such a joy to have. I am grateful every day for him.

Happy Anniversary!

Tomorrow is 13 years of marriage for us. Seems like only yesterday!

Lets See .........

Sorry it has been so long since I updated! I just never seem to have the time to get on the computer anymore. I only seem to want to sleep in my free time! I work 5pm to 2am. I get home go to bed and well, pray that Ashton will let me sleep for a little while! Usually he sleeps until 9-10am. He is really a good sleeper 'cause he goes to bed at 8pm!!! I then get up with him and entertain him! Then we lay down for a nap most days. That truly is my day.

So what exciting news do I have for you....... Well, Ashton was in a car wreck. It happened on 7-20. Grandad and Nana had him for the day (family helps me out so I can get some regular sleep) They usually take my car but since Carl was in Akron Oh. For the soap box derby race I was staying at my mother's house. They usually pick him up around 10 so I just left the car seat for them to put in their car. Everyone is ok. Their car was hit in the side. The wreck did $8000 damage to their 4-runner! I am so thankful that everyone is ok and so thankful at the same time that it was their car and not mine! LOL

More exciting news is that Ashton is now over 6months in age. I just can't believe how fast he is growing. It seems like just yesterday that I found out that I was pregnant. I do a lot of thinking about what I was doing this time last year, how far along I was ect.... I just can't believe how time has flown since he got here. I know my pregnancy didn't go that fast at all. Time is really a funny thing.

Ashton rolled over once and discovered that he will get to his belly and well, I don't think he is going to do it anytime soon again! LOL He hates to be on his stomach. He now can sit up for about 20 minutes at a time before he timbers over like a tree! Yesterday we went out to eat for lunch and he used a high chair for the first time.

Ashton had a drs appt Friday and he is now 18.8 pounds and 27 3/4inches long. He had his shots and did really well. He is now eating anything that I want to introduce to him. He got carrots last night and He doesn't like them! It is funny when he doesn't want to eat something 'cause he sticks his tongue out. Maybe if I can figure out how to get this computer to work with the photos I can get a picture of it. It is so funny.

I think you are now up to date with me! I hope that I can now update more often than I have been. I have just been so tired but being a MOM is so worth it.

Sounds from the back seat

I was driving home last week and all I heard from the back seat was laughing cooing and toy noise. It was wonderful to hear. I can't even explain how I felt. I never in my wildest dreams believed I would get pregnant nor did I ever imagine having a child. I started to cry because it was a joy to hear. I love having Ashton. He is a miracle that I thank God for every day. What a blessing that I have him. I am now that women that I never thought I would be. I am the one with the miracle child. I used to be so envious of those women. The one that couldn't get pregnant and then does. I understood their story (infertility) but I was jealous of them. I never thought I could be one of them. I thought God would not bless us with a child. Now, I thank God for him everyday. (Sorry for no paragraphs but with using the old computer-------- every time I hit enter it puts me down the page)

Got a virus!

Well, we got hit with a big one and well, we don't know where it came from. The virus got into our hard drive and our computer is gone!! We are using our old one until we can afford a new one.

I will be uploading photos soon of Ashton and of our cat Sprite who we had to put to sleep last Wed. He was 21 years old. He has been with my sister for the past 8 years. One of my other cats was beating him up to bad so she took him for his protection!

Sorry for no Updates!

I can't believe that I only gave one update in June. It seems like that month just flew by! Where is time going now? I know it didn't go by this fast when I was pregnant!

Ashton is such a good baby. I have no complaints. He is just wonderful! He has his daddies attitude! It is a good thing! LOL He is growing so fast. He eats so much! LOL He is eating cereal and some fruit now. He seems to like this. I still have no photos uploaded so I made a slideroll of the ones I did have. There is a link on the side for them.

Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of when Lorna was due. I miss her still. I wish I could have 2 children right now but I know that she came to let me have Ashton. We needed to know how to get a baby here (heprin injections and such) I still wonder about her everyday. Not a day goes by that I don't think of the angel that is watching over us.

Happy anniversary Lorna. I hope you like the fireworks tomorrow. I know that you can see them from heaven.

Just thinking!

I just read Jen's blog. She is trying to lose weight with Weight Watchers. Some time ago I lost 34 pounds on it. I guess I should try to lose some weight. I was a big girl before Ashton came. I am back to pre-pregnancy weight but I should probably lose about 35 more hmmm....... I guess I never even thought about it until I read Jen's blog. I used to obsess about losing and ttc and well, ttc was put to a halt (LOL) and losing weight while pregnant (not so good) I guess what I just realized is how much Ashton has changed me all together. I think I need to start to get back to being just a little me!

We haven't changed our schedules at work yet. We had like 5 people quit so it will be a little while before I get on my new schedule. I was hoping to move soon. I am so tired all the time. Even when I am up in the morning I don't do anything. I really think my house is a mess. I just haven't' found my knatch into mothering and being a good wife too! LOL Carl does help me a lot and I am really thankful for that even if I didn't get a mother's day card. LOL I got Carl a card from me and from Ashton weeks ago! I hope he feels just a little guilty tomorrow! LOL

I have no batteries in my camera so I haven't taken any pictures of Ashton lately! I feel bad every day that I don't take a photo. I feel like I should have a photo for every day of his life. Does anyone else seem to think I am just a little crazy? LOL Sometimes I think that I might be.

Ashton hasn't rolled over yet. Most babies do about this time. I really don't think that he is going to roll. All he ever does when he is on his belly is scream. He hates it. All I can see is he sees no purpose in rolling over there. When he is on his belly he cries until he falls asleep. Any other suggestions would be nice. He is eating cereal now. He also doesn't really like this so I am adding applesauce to his mix which he seems like he tolerates it better.

I just read over the last paragraph and it sounds like Ashton is well a screamer which he is most certainly not. He is extremely happy. He just knows what he doesn't like LOL. Seriously Carl and I couldn't have asked for a better little boy then the one God chose to bless us with.