Photos as promised

Hayley in her Bumbo seat. She is 4 months old.





Ashton and Hayley. Don't they look alike?


Daddy and Hayley she is 4 months old


I have been having a hard time getting Hayley to sleep in her crib. She likes her mobile to much!


Hayley in her Bumbo seat at 3 months


I took my shower and this is where I found Ashton. He was sleeping when I went in!



We went to the national zoo. It was so hot that day. We went in July








Ashton was watching TV in his room



Ashton held us captive in our house with the hose!


This is Carl's sister Jessica with Hayley she was 8 weeks old


My niece Andrea and the kids


Got Milk?? (yes its spit up but its funny)


Daddy and Hayley (3months old)

Yes I am alive

It has been a long time since I updated my blog!! Having 2 children really does take all of your time. So much has gone on and adjusting to our new life has had its challenges! I promise I will update on photos this weekend. I will have a ton of them.

Since I posted last time, Hayley is getting so big and well she is already 4 months old! My how time flys. I was able to breast feed her until Aug when I went back to work. It was great to be able to do it this time. I would have been able to do it with Ashton had I known all that I know now. I wish that I didn't have to go back to work. I would still be breast feeding. I tried after going back to work it was just to much hassle and time consuming to do.

Ashton is getting big as well. He is already over 3 feet tall. Over half of my height! He is talking so much. He has always been a talker but now he is saying so many words. He will engage in a conversation and will start one if he has something to say. He is the typical 2 year old. He has many tantrums! He loves having his sister. It is so funny that it seems he doesn't remember being the only child. It is like she has been here all of his life.

If you don't remember I lost my job (we lost the account) I was able to find another one that started Aug. 1 doing the same thing that I was doing before. I have to travel farther but that is OK. It is a job and I know that many are looking for work right now. It is going well. Carl decided to leave Schneider and come with me to the new company National Freight Inc. He is driving locally for them on the new account. Kohls. All he does is drive to the stores and drop his trailer and pick up the old one. He really likes it alot. His hours are all over the place though and he never has the same day off. The insurance doesn't kick in until Jan and they let you have a supplemental insurance. Which well sucks. I hope Ashton doesn't break his arm!

I am in a rountine of sorts. It has been difficult trying to get into one with 2 of them on different sleep patterns. Hayley has been a great sleeper! She has been sleeping through the night since 2 months but she is am and Ashton after I went back to work has gone to the evening shift. I am working 2pm to 10 pm. Ashton hasn't been going to bed until midnight! Hayley is up at 6-7am so I am sleep deprived everyday. Once in a blue moon someone will take them from me and I get a nap. Those naps are the best sleep I get! I should be sleeping right now because Carl is home and could take the kiddos for me but I am here updating you all. I am sure that there isn't many readers left!

I will post pictures tomorrow I won't promise but hope. Anything is possible to get in my way with 2 of them!!

Lots and Lots of Pictures

Grampie and Hayley. She is 5 weeks old


Ashton in Hayley's playmat!!


June 13, 2008. After a hard day at Aunt DeeDoo's house


This is Lexie, she won the soap box race in the master's division!! Congratulations! She is a neice! She will go and compete in Ohio in July!


May 19, 2008. The first time in the Gym for Ashton! He is now a pro!!


Hayley getting baptized 6/1/08


Great Aunt Betty and Hayley. 6/1/08


Grandad, Nanny and Hayley. 6/1/08


Godparents, Darren, Robin, their daughter Courtney (our goddaughter) and Hayley.6/1/08


Pastor Terri and Hayley. 6/1/08


Ashton and his swing set


Ashton and his swing set


Hayley growing out of her outfits already at 3 week!


Hayley and Gramie. 3 weeks old


6/1/08 This is the first full family photo we have. It only took 4 weeks!!


5/24/08 Hayley at her first soap box race.


5/16/08. Hayley's first tub bath.


Ashton at the playland at Burger King


Hayley is to tired to play at Burger King!


Carl and Ashton playing with his swing set.

New Pictures of my Children!!

Here they are! I can't believe that I have 2 of them!!!

Pictures!!!!!!!!

She gave us a very big scare. I went in at 7:30 on the first. Everything was good. I was already in a pattern so the dr just used cytotec. Since the epi now comes with a pump you can get it at any time!! So I got it around 10:30am. Around 2pm my dr decided to break my water. OH NO! Cord came out first! Not good. My dr is great she caught it. Put me in trendellenburg and then hooked me to pitocin to bring Hayley down the birth canel. All along I am signing papers for the emergency c section. If the anesteilogist had been there I would have had the section. However, her moving everything out of the way and the contractions fixed the problem. My dr was still very nervous that I wouldn't be able to push her out. AT 3:30pm it is time to push, I pushed about 3 x and dr could see that Hayley's shoulder was going to have a problem coming through. She did an episotomy. I didn't have this with Ashton I had the perneal message, GET THE EPISOTOMY!!!! It was so much better. So 1 more push and she was here.

5/1/08 at 1546. Weighing in at 8lbs 3 oz

Meet Hayley Renae

My sister Dina

Ashton coming to see Hayley for the first time.





Daddy and Hayley

Hayley has been born

We are happy to say that are little girl has arrived She weighs 8lbs 3oz and was 20 and a half inches long and she looks great

Induction is set for Thursday!

I hope all goes well!! My cervix has to be ready. Not exactly sure what that means. a week ago last monday I was 3cm and 75%. The dr who I saw on Monday didn't check it then. (not my regular dr)

I have been feeling guilty that Ashton won't be my only child anymore. It hit really hard this evening and has made me cry!! I went to Walmart and bought him a new video and let him pretend play on the video machines Tomorrow he goes with Gramie all day long. I am not going to take that from him just so I see him all day!

4am thoughts!

How amazing is it that I am pregnant? How amazing it is that I am pregnant natrually? How amazing is to feel Hayley move? How amazing it is that I am 15 days from having a bundle of joy that should never have been? What a survivor this one is? She just shouldn't be! She has overcome so much to be here! First that I o'd on my own! 2nd that Carl and I even had sex to conceive her! 3rd that his tropper found the right direction! 4th that I took provera to bring on AF and she never came! 5th that she found the right place to implant! 6th that she developed a HB! 7th that I even discovered that I was preggo at all and able to get on the right meds at that time! 8th that we made it past the 1st, 2nd and now 3rd trimesters. 9th that I am going to be holding a baby soon that I never thought in a million years would ever be! 10th I just can't believe any of it.

What an amazing journey she has already been on. I sit here and just think of how none of this would have crossed my mind just 3 years ago after losing Lorna. I never thought I would be that one that would get preggo after 12 yrs of infertility 2 losses 1 child. Carl and I in Aug will celebrate our 15th wedding anniversary..........................I can't believe that it has been that long............................ I never thought I would have one child let alone 2! What a joy it is to have been blessed with her! I am overly anxious to meet this miracle! I thought Ashton was a miracle...this one just blows my mind as to how she even came to be....

I am nervous about giving birth to her. Nervous that something may go wrong in the next 15 days. Nervous that there maybe something wrong etc..... I remember having all of these feelings with Ashton. However with this pregnancy already having overcome all the odds, I just can't help but be amazed when I allow myself to think that I am preggo at all!

OK I can't sleep tonight, I am more miserable than ever and yet I am happy to be feeling this way at all!!!!!!!!

3cm dialated and 75% effaced!

Had my NST this morning. Hayley passed with flying colors. I am having regular contractions. I am not feeling them all yet! The ones that I am feeling are about every 10 mins or so. Hopefully won't be much longer now! My dr did say to me that she was on call Friday so hopefully that will mean something then!! LOL

Shower/ Belly and Ashton Photos!

Here is a picture of something I said I was never going to do! Yes we put a TV in Ashton's room! I am so sick of Thomas and Bob!

Sleeping on the floor in his room

Yes Ashton took a nap in his bed!! We are co-sleeping so even though he was only there for 20 minutes he was still there!

"Mommy, I have stickers on my head!"


NST today. Hayley passed with flying colors. I have a ton of fluid. I am having contractions but not in any pattern yet! I am 2cm dialated and 50%! So I hope we go sooner than expected. Last week they did a weight check and well, she was estimated at 7lbs already!
36.4week belly photo from Today!!




Pictures from my baby shower April 5