Another appointment!

I had another appointment today. Everything looks really good! My Dr peaked in with the u/s machine. She said everything looks great! Heart was pumping away!! I looked at the picture on the screen and I would swear he had his feet by his ears! LOL Anyway, she asked if she had told us the sex or not and I said yes. She said he is a definitely little boy! I guess he was showing his stuff! I feel very excited and nervous all at the same time. I am scared to be excited!

Growing Pains!

I have them! They are freaking me out for the most part. Thank God for the Doppler. I called the DR to be sure that what I was feeling was round ligament pain! They assured me that is what I am feeling. I sure wish I could not be in such a state of constant panic. It is extremely hard not to worry about every ache and pain but I sure am. I only have 19 more weeks of this worry. Then I get to worry on a whole new level!

Halfway!!!

Well, yesterday anyway! I can't believe that I made it to this point. I am very excited about being here. I am still very much terrified that we can lose this one too. My and DH's guard is still up. I just got an email from baby center about signing up for birthing classes. Am I wrong does this seem just a tad bit early?? Any advice would be nice. I wanted to make a post yesterday but I was so busy trying to get the house straight and get us packed so we could go racing this weekend.

We got up at 2:15am. We have a four hour drive ahead of us! It is tiring to race this way but we are trying not to spend so much money. We get over to my mother's house and switch to our truck (that was hooked to the trailer yesterday). We get in and go. We aren't even to the interstate yet and WHAMMMM!!!!! Deer ran out in front of us and we centered it with our truck! YUCK!! Well, we get to the place where we are meeting my sister and we can smell something burning (probably just fur) The deer pushed our bumper into the grill some and we were afraid that we have damage to the radiator. There wasn't anything leaking yet that we could see but it was so dark and well we just didn't want to take the chance that the truck might break down away from the house! WE DIDN'T GO! I AM SO DISAPPOINTED! I LOVE RACING!

Today is the day!!

I am 19 weeks and 2 days along. This is the day that I have been so scared of because this is the time that I lost Lorna at. I haven't posted much here or anywhere all week long just trying to deal with my nerves. I know that everything on the 2nd looked great with Ashton but they did with Lorna and we lost her 10 days later. So I have been using my doppler about 4x a day!! Just for reassurance and the DR even said that I could! Anyway, I woke up last night at 2am and checked to be sure he was still with us and he was. I woke up again at 7am and checked again and he is still here. Tomorrow I am treading on fresh waters! I do hope that I can let go of some of these fears and truly enjoy this pregnancy. When you have lost like we have the innocence of pregnancy is gone and fear of the unknown becomes what you think about.

Everyone I would like for you to see

Ashton Lee Pleasants. Yes we are having a boy. This u/s sound today was sooo amazing. We got to see him move (something Lorna didn't do for us) Everytime the tech went to take a picture, he moved. She thought that is was going to be a gril but he showed himself for the dr when she came in!! My Dr also thinks that this baby is extremely healthy and looks good. She understands that it is our loss time(about) and was willing to see me next week just so that it would calm my fears. However I turned that down because we have the doppler at home. She said she felt like this baby was going to make it. I am calm today but I will go back to worring tomorrow!

This is my beautiful profile

At the bottom you can see my feet. I had them crossed

This is looking down at my skull

This is my butt with my legs!

This is a picture of my hand but I moved.

This is the top of my head with my arms out.

This is my hand

You can see my ulnar and radius bones.

Looking down this is my face

and arms!

Nerves Nerves Nerves!!

That about sums up an update from me!! I could leave it at that and leave you gals hanging but I won't! I am 17 weeks and 4 days now. Friday is my level 2 u/s. I am soooooooo nervous about this. I can't believe how nervous I actually am. I am nervous that their maybe something wrong. I really don't have reason to worry do I?? I mean the egg and sperm looked good to the Dr before they put them in. I am just really worried that there might be.

My appt on Friday puts me at 18 weeks. I had the level 2 done with Lorna at 17.6. Everything was fine with her. She had a little bit of fluid on her kidney but everything looked normal. 10 days later she was gone. I am approaching my loss date (weeks wise) and this has increased my NERVES!! I know this I just can't seem to get over it!!!!!!!!!

Look what Carl brought home for me!

When Carl got off from work on Wednesday, he stopped in at the flower shop and picked me up these flowers!! I love flowers! I said what a loving thing to do for no reason. He said "The reason is that I love you" What a wonderful thing he did! With the pregnancy hormones, I about cried!

Here is my Kitty Symon!!

Not much to update on so I though I would post another picture of another one of my cats!! You know I have 8 of them!! Symon is the typical siamese cat! He hates everyone in the whole world except me! This also includes all of the other cats in the house. If there is fighting among the cats, he is involved!

OMG!! Its a close-up!!!!

Ok I am starting to feel huge. I don't really look any different then I did before!!

My 15.2 week belly!!

Ok since I posted it on PW. I thought I might as well go ahead and let the rest of you see!

Another appt down!

Today's appointment was not with my regular OB DR. She is high risk and is out on vacation this week. I really didn't think they got one!! LOL Anyway I saw the DR that delivered Lorna. It was nice to see him on a better note then last time. He didn't do a peek in with the ultrasound machine! My OB would have. So sad, I don't have any photos to post! Anyway the appt. went well. Heard the heart beat with the doppler. We have one at home and we listen EVERY day!

I am still amazed that there is another bean growing there. I really felt like after we lost Lorna that there would never be another chance. I am so grateful that there is one. Goes to show, I guess, that if you want something badly enough you will continue to try. Thank God for second chances.

Also, last Monday was our 12th wedding anniversary. We didn't do anything special. Just went out to eat last Sunday. We didn't even exchange cards or anything at all. So it was uneventful evening together. It is sometimes the best evenings in the world when you do nothing at all!

Meet my Cat Steve

I am YoYo's and Ben's brother! Can you believe that? I am certain that I don't have the same father! I am the alpha cat and I like to make sure that it stays that way. I beat everyone in the house up just so they know!

Meet my cat Ben!!

As you maybe able to tell, I am YoYo's brother. Mom and Dad had a very hard time telling us apart when we were kittens. I love to be annoying. I just want to be loved and it doesn't matter where or when I demand attention. I expect to get it!!